the ironies of some...

bagong taon, bagong buhay?

2006-06-21T17:41:00.000+08:00

PROLOGUE: hayup ang chem...
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yr.III sec.5.

cn. 31.

yup.very much different from last school year.

from that classroom at the top of the staircase to being banished to the end of nowhere.

har.

i just can't believe that i'm in 3rd year, though i'm still on the same building floor as i was for the past 2 years.
at least last year's sections didn't get reshuffled, as in, REALLY reshuffled.
but i do miss alot of gals from my class last year.
haay...
at least i see it as a way of getting to know more people.

anyway, our new teachers are really, kinda boring.
i try not to daydream or fall asleep in their classes but i constantly find myself drifting in and out of consciousness. hay naku.
and some of the new teachers piss me off. please don't ask me now..hehe. i'm not in a mood for a very detailed entry.(obviously, i'm writing in siple sentences..didn't you notice?;P)

i just wanna get through this year fast.
bring me back those lazy summer days.
i wanna go to college.
get a job.
travel around the world.
and that's my life so far.
then you can end it.

but first, help me pass my Geometry and get me a decent prom date, will you?
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EPILOGUE:har....

first day high!!

2006-06-08T12:14:00.000+08:00

PROLOGUE: le's do the 1st day high!!;p
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excited na ako pumasok!
wheee!!

parang ang daming stuff to look forward o this school year!
pero sana un mga friends ko parn ang mga kklase ko..haay...sna di na ma-reshuffle para masaya na hanggang pag graduate.

i'll miss summer..
specially those bittersweet memories na natamo ko this year.
haay... sana pwedeng i-rewind nalang at i-rewind..
kaso i have to wait for 10 months pa apra mkapag-lakwatsa pa ulit. and that depends kung matititno ang mga grades na makukuha ko this incoming school year.

GUSTO KO ULI NG MASAYANG SUMMER NEXT YEAR.

KAYA YAN.

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EPILOGUE:

sabi nanga ba eh...

"..it doesen't matter if i'm alone
i got a place i call my own
i don't care if i'm away
coz i know i'll be back...."

lahat ng kasiyahan may katapusan.tama ba?;P

gulong ng palad ba ito..?!hehe..xP

2006-05-23T18:37:00.000+08:00

PROLOGUE: antagal ng huling post ko ah...haar...ayaw n kasi mag-open ng blogger s comp sa bahay..haar!!

haaar....

..been a long while since i updated. i've been to bicol and back. i've enrolled in a crash subject (goodluck to me!!) and now summer's about to be over since the rain clouds are gatherin..harhar.

it's okay...i'm happy.... i've been to lots of places this summer, i've met great people and i..well... ehm..never mind..XP

i only hope my uusual bliss would last.. that it'll be the one that would get me through the next 10 months of student martyrdom. and that come next summer... that unusual bliss would still be here with me. i don't want it to end. it's too good to be true.

i believe in the balance of nature. the yin and yang. the good within the bad and the bad within the good. last yearwas kinda so-so for me. well, my friends and fam had been there to keep my spirits up, but that year seemed too...empty for me. nothing much happened. well.. i hope what's happening now is what's equivalent to my boring, disheveled year that i had... maybe this could be my time.

everyhing seems to fall into place. it's as if this summer will lay out everything i need to get through 'till the next. i hope so..

they say Junior year would be crucial, since it would determine your fate in your college admissions and your college determines your future..wel, not much but that's kinda like it. and i have a prom o get over with, with no prom date yet...hehe. more on that soon, i hope.. :)

anyway, back to the crucial thing.. yep..i really,really,really have to make it good. gotta make my new books my new best friends!!(haha...sorry yash!i miss u best!!)

anyway, i'll just do my stuff... be Bennette Roaring, no one else.

EPILOGUE: i know i said i hate cueshe' pero nakakatama talaga ang kantang ito,,lalo na ngayon..

I’ve been lying here and wide awake

Till the night dies out and day to break

Every minute seems like endless hours

when i'm with you

I miss your eyes, your smile and lovely face

I can’t forget those sweet embrace

We both could share our endless dreams

If you were here

Doesn’t matter if i’m alone

I got a place i call my own

I don’t care if you’re away

coz i know you'll be back someday

someday

I guess it’s better if we were off that way

We’ll find ourselves and come what may

If i could have one wish then i will beg

For you to stay

Doesn’t matter if i’m alone

I got a place i call my own

I don’t care if you’re away

coz i know you'll be back someday

someday

I’ve been lying here and wide awake

The sun has come for the moon to take

I never thought that we could end like this

Wish you were here

Doesn’t matter if i’m alone

I got a place i call my own

I don’t care if you’re away

coz i know you'll be back someday

someday

yeah..i know.. and i hope i do.and i hope all of these is true...

narda(?!?!)

2006-05-03T16:48:00.000+08:00

PROLOGUE: miss na miss ko na talaga ang province kahit na kakauwi ko lang (again..hehe) sayang di ako nakaabot ng fiesta..pero nakapag-beach naman ako ng 2x!haha!oh well..'til next summer..

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mapapansin kaya
sa dami ng yong linalaro
kung kaagaw ko iyon
may pagasa bang makasama ka?

awit na nananawagan
baka sakaling napakikinggan
pagibig na palaisipan
sa kanta nalang idaraan
nagaabang sa kalye
sa may kanto sumisilip
sa likod ng computer
kahit sulyap lang parker..

agawin ko kaya sa iyo ang CD
para lang ika'y asarin
ito ang tanging paraan para mayakap ka..

>>>wahaha..pinsan ko gumawa nyan...
ang galing nya no...;p
para sa pinsan nya..hehe!!
tama na yan..
oo..
nam-miss ko yan..
kahit matawa kayo.
har!!
(para lang sa mga may nakakaalam nito..haha!)

EPILOGUE: bukas, bicol naman pupuntahan ko..hehe!!sana ganun din kasaya..hehe!

i'm baaaaaaaaack!!!

2006-04-26T11:31:00.000+08:00

PROLOGUE: i missed the met... WAHA!

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THANK GOD I'M BACK!
but i do miss the province.
kaya nga babalik ako sa friday eh!
whee!!
yehey!

dun kasi ako naging masaya, sa buong tanan ng mga summer escapades ko.
yup.
it's as if there, i can do anything..
and it's what makes me happy.

so..

aun...

naiyak panga ako eh..

oh well..
even though we'll just stay there for about 2-3 days, that's enough for me.
(we're even planning our REVENGE)

wahaha...

i'm so happy.
i even sucked up to my dad so he'd allow me.
yehey!
mabuti nalang pinayagan uli ako.
after that, we'll be going to bicol.
then when i come back, it's off to studying for moi.
amd that's where my summer ends.

and after that, i'll have to wait for another 2 years before i have some serious summer fun.
how sad, but.. oh well... ;p

at ayokong magising sa umagang nagaakit mabuksan..(boreed..)

2006-04-20T13:32:00.000+08:00

DISCLAIMER: got this from ikit's blog.. (miss you ikit!labas tayo ah?kelan nga ba?)

1. Initials:

b.a.r

2. Name someone with the same birthday asyours?

as far as i know, si geline manahan.

3.Last thing that you ate?

bbq.for lunch.

4. For or against same sex marriage?

err..against?yeah..

5. Do you still watch cartoons on Saturday?

like, who doesn't?

6. Do you believe in God?

yep.

7. Something non-physical you like about yourself:

im an optimist. haha.

8. What is your crush's name?

believe me, you wouldn't want to know....

10. If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go?

the center of art, Europe. (specifically France [yeah, where's # 9?])

11. Favorite holiday?

anything that spells "no classes" (and that counts typhoon days..)

12. Do you download music?

yeah. i sup[port piracy..well, depends...pag cueshe' dinadownload ko tas ibebenta ko.wahaha!!

13. Where would you want to go on a first date?

somewhere with the view of the city lights.. at night

14. Has anyone ever sang or played for you?

uh-huh..

15. Have you ever cried for a reason?

lots of times.

16. Do you like President Arroyo?

ok lang..

17. Have you ever bungee jumped?

nope. anyone wants to go with me? hehe..

18. Has anyone ten years older than you ever hit on you?

ha? please rephrase..?

19. How is the weather right now?

hottah hottah!

20. Current track you're listening to?

lunes- join the club

21. What is your current favorite song?

i dunno..haha!marami eh!

22. What was the last movie you watched?

err..i forgot..haha!!

23. Do you wear contacts?

nope. i have 20-20 vision.. (Or so i think..)

24. Where was the last place you went besidesyour house?

im in vigan as i type this post..haar!!

25. What are you afraid of the most?

being alone. and failing algeb.haha!

26. Any pets?

we have dogs at home. but i disown them i hate askals.

27. Have you ever loved someone?

filial lang, mga dude!

28. What really turns you on?

err... flattery?haha!

29. What do you usually order from Starbucks?

frap.. I NEED ONE RIGHT NOW!!

30. Have you ever fired a gun?

nope. but i wanna try!

31. Are you missing someone? yeah.

32. Do you have an iPod?

yep. nano. 4gb.

33. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?

yup. heck.. and i don't!

34. What's the name of your crush?

have i seen this question before!??!?!

35. Are you comfortable with your height?

sobra-sobra nanga eh!

36. Have you ever been caught doing somethingyou weren't supposed to be doing?

yup. a lot. (onga, asan si # 37?)

38. Butter, plain, kettle, or salted popcorn?

butter!

39. What books are you reading right now?

les miserables. and so far no progression..

40. Has anyone you were really close to passedaway?

yup. my grandpa.

41. Do you watch MTV?

heck, lots of times.

42. What's something that really annoys you?

boredom. and going bankrupt. haar!!

43. What are some things you really like?

music. nice food. some decent stuff to read. and *someone* hehe!

44. Do you like Michael Jackson?

okie lang..haha!

46. Favorite football team?

liverpool?hehe..!

47. Favorite breakfast food?

keebler tree's graham crackers and o.j..

48. anong gusto mong isigaw ngayon kungsakaling nasa taas ka ng bundok?

NAKAKAINIS!!!!!!!!WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the metropolis is waiting....

2006-04-20T13:09:00.000+08:00

PROLOGUE: wala.. how borr-ing...haar...

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ayan.... ganyan ang pakiramdam ko ngayon.

uwing-uwi na ako...

24 hours to go...

life's a b**ch..and i meant bEAch, ok?!

2006-04-16T21:37:00.000+08:00

PROLOGUE: haar...

got thia from dizon's blog..seems like i'm not making much sense in my posts. har. full of filipino linking verbs, pronouns and such..darrn.... anyway, es, i am very sleepy. don't mind asking. i can't even remember what occulent means.. (or do i?)

anyway, i'm gonna make another post, since it's been quite a while since i put down much of my very boring err-escapades- here. *yawn* wala naman kasing magawa. har. we went to the beach this morning, but i didn't swim. i just stood there as the waves crashed against my feet, and tried to ward off the sand got stuck between my toes. darn. for those who know me well (or had been reading my previous posts), you probably have an idea why the words beach and bennette don't match. darn. unlike other people out there who would love to flaunt their seemingly perfect tan in a bikini and play beach volley ball, i would rather stay under an umbrella, thankyouverymuch. not much of a swimmer, but i do love watching sunsets. when we went to Bauan, i had to wait for the sunset and take a picture of it before the sun goes down completely. see. i even regret wading near the shore since my legs are now itchy and as if i can feel the sand beneath my feet even though i'm wearing my slippers. yuuh. *yawn*

anyway, we just stayed at the beach for around 3-4 hours, since there was nothing much to do. (did i mention that i don't like salt unless it's on popcorn or in some form of viand or seasoned food?). and it was hot. i mean hot. i texted my classmate a while ago and she said that it was raining (wait, let emphasize it) raining in antipolo. so much for the heat here. yup. *yawn* anyway, as i said, it was so hot, and i really don't prefer going out and getting a tan, much more swimming on salty waters. yuuh. the last summer that i swam in a beach (note: this was a kinda private beach), my hair became unmanageable, tangled, hard as stone and such. i don't know why, but it took me about a week before i restored my crowning glory to it's-err- normal hair state (that was after a hot oil). so i don't really like my hair getting messed. the last time we went to the pool, the chlorine left a stinky smell on my hair that i could even smell up to now. i'm just honest. my hair smells terribly like chlorine now (and the shampoo takes no effetc on my hair). i hate it talaga. *yawn* my legs are still very itchy from all that sand, and *yawn* yes, i am kinda sleepy. (question: how do i insert a strikethrough on my text here?)

anyway, yes, i am *yawn* sleepy and kinda bored. can't wait to sleep. and the cueshe' song (haaar...) is playing again. believe me, if you want to piss me off (ok, let me repeat it) if you want to piss me off, you'd better start playing that song and i yes, i will get pissed off. har. yuuh. see. i even dislike that video. (waha!discalimer: for those who are avid fans of the band, please don't sue me, since i am just expressing my opinions here, ok?ni harm in doing so, ayt?)
my entry's still short *yawn* yes, i am very sleepy (how many times had i said that?) and i wanna go home and sleep na. har. anyway, thankyouverymuch that i'm not hearing that song.. har. the reason that i put up to it on my ipod is because of-well- i have a reason, ok? especially thas specific cueshe' song. it's because of-never mind-..some things are better left unsaid. haar. the things that you can do naman kpag gnon nalang ang -ano- mo sa isang -ano-. waha.

anyway, i can hear that narda song again. here we go. like, is that the new national anthem or something? did somene change Jose Palma's work to some rock band's new stnt? I thought i left that song in manila, but heck, it's here. har. enough with the narda song, please. my ears are bleeding na. ok?Ok? am i bad?hahaha!!
anyway, can i go to sleep na? haar... and when i wake up tomorrow, i will either hear one of those 2 songs for a minimum of a hundred times.

EPILOGUE: can i go now?

whew..kahit saan ba sa pilipinas ay mainit?!?!?!

2006-04-13T14:29:00.000+08:00

ang init.
kahit dito sa ilocos.
(yep, im typing my entry from here, vigan).
more on my adeventures next time.
just want a cld pitcher of iced tea...gah...

last post before i head off to the horizon...

2006-04-10T12:42:00.000+08:00

DISCLAIMER: got this from ate anne's blog (hi ate anne!Hehe!!congrats nga pala.kahit 2 weeks ago pa yung grad nyo). naaliw ako eh.haha..thanks.

Can you name 21 people you can think of right of the top of your head?Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 21 people.Do not do it in any particular order.

1. -toot- uste
2.yash lagdameo
3.niko noble (ang ganda talaga ng pangala mo pare..alliteration!)
4.jura lagdameo
5. jap lagdameo
6.rayann c. (tsktsk...)
7.amor dimaano
8.maxine reyes
9.jupa taub
10.raissuh cano
11.ikit singson
12.nikki edelmaier
13.erisch sandoval
14.erika dizon
15.ASHLEY PARKER (wahehe)
16.sam milby
17.anya ong
18.yael yuzon
19. adrian (whatsyourlastnameagaiN?sorry aids..)
20.tricia rullian
21.-sikretong malupet- sorry...

QUESTIONS:
1. How did you meet 14?
>teka.sino ba uli un..ah..si dizon..kakalase ko ng gr.5 tas kaklase ko uli ng 1st at 2nd year.hehe.

2. What would you do if you had never met 6?
>wala akong *ahem* well..personalan na ata yan ah..basta..

3. What would you do if 20 and 9 dated?
>wahaha!mga kaklase ko yan!ano ba!wahaha!!

4. Did you ever like 11?
>ang cute ng batang iyan..xempre naman, kaibigan ko yan eh..iba?

5. Would 4 and 12 make a good couple?
>ano ba!waha!kaklase at kapatid ng bes'preh ko yan.waha.

6. Describe 8
>si max?daming boylet..waha..at masayang kasama.

7. Do you think 13 is attractive?
>maganda yan..si erisch pa..

8. Tell me something humiliating about 17?
>si ong?wahah..marami yang ginagawang kababalaghan pag nags-softball kami..wahaha!

9. Do you know any of 4's family members?
>uh..sina tito at tita (tawag ko sa parents nila..hehe..), si jap sandoval yung kuya nila at yung bes'preh ko ay kapatid nya..si yash sandoval

10. What's 21's favorite color?
>ALAM KO YAN!!!WAHA!SINABI SAKIN YAN!(ata..) blue ata yan eh..at black..hehe...

11.On a scale of 1-10, how hot is 10?
>si bakhlita?waha..macho fafa yan... err... 9.9?haha!!

12. What would you do if 18 just confessed they liked you?
>OO!PAKAKASALAN NA KITA!waha!pero pwedeng ikaw muna prom date ko?kahit mag-flats ako at mag-heels ka..wahaha!!

13. What language does 20 speak
>filipino.meron pa yang "tinipaklong"...hehe!!pero pag English nage-english din yan kasi sya yung taga-lista ng mga nagt-tagalog..waha!

14. Who is 9 going out with?
>jupa?ewan.wala naman ata.pero kung meron man at sinabi ko dito, patay na ako sa mga bullies...(huhuhu)

15. What grade is 16 in?
>haha!graduate na yan..professional na yan..haha!("oh why don't you smile my only star..")

16. When's the last time you talked to 13?
>last month.waha.teka..mahaba paba to?mauubos na yung time ko!

17. What is 2's favorite band/singers?
>lahat ng mga senti..a.k.a lahat ng mga hindi ko pinapakinggan.

18. Would you ever date 5?
>waha!Hindi!may gf na yan!Lagot din ako sa bes'preh ko!

19. Would you ever date 1?
>tinatanong paba yan?inaantay ko nanga ang araw na yun eh...;)

20. What is 19's last name?
>waha!hindi ko nga maalala!mahira i-pronounce eh! sa--something..sorry aids..

21. Would you ever want to be in a serious relationship with 3?
>nope.fren ko yan eh. tinutulungan ko pa yan manligaw.

22. What school does 7 go to?
>a.a yan.pero may balak mag-Oxford.

23. Where does 15 live?
>somewhere in the U.S of A. check out OUR crib. ;p

24. Are number 7 & 8 Best friends?
>nope.pero they're good acquaintances at parehong binubully ako.

25. Do you like 21?
>haha..ilang beses ko paba sasabihin ang sagot sa tanong na yan..

wish me luck..aalis na ako mamayang gabi...waha..vigan, here i come...:D

continuation (haaay...im lazy..)

2006-04-09T15:19:00.000+08:00

oo..asa friendster ko rin yan.. sobra na kasi ang mga kanta pag narinig mo at naka-relate ka...

choose your own topic..har..

2006-04-07T16:17:00.000+08:00

PROLOGUE: ayt, antagaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaal na since nagpost ako. anyway, before i go to another week-long hiatus (more on that later), imma post some stuff here. you just choose the one you'd like to read, ok?(sub-title says all..) these are in NO WAY in any chronological order. njoi.;p
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GRADES

how lovely.. just got my grades last saturday..har..lowest ko ba naman 83... yup..san pa ba... hinayupak na INTERMEDIATE ALGEBRA ya... kung sino kasing gumawa nyan e galit sa mga bata. leche. pahirapan ba naman kami. tangna. hay nako. parang di ako nagreview nung summer at nababad sa kahihiyan habang naglalakad sa kahabaan ng Katipunan para lang makapag-aral eh..(alam yan ng mga pinagkwentuhan ko..ok?mukang may repeat performance pa yan this May..tsktsk..). pano kasi, na-distract ako these last 2 quarters..andami kasing pinroblema..at nagkakataon na natatapat bago ako magtest. har. anyway, thank god hindi ako magsusummer or something. kasi talagang mamamatay ako. kung magaaral man akong algeb, sa Katipunan uli. review. geometry na pala. ano to, kapatid ba rin ni algebra? may galit rin ba sakin ito? nako..geometry..don't judge me pa ha.. sana wala munang pahirapan.good luck to me.
anyway, my other grades were ok naman. sa maniwala kayo't sa hindi, T.H.E ung pinakamataas ko sa 4th quarter. hindi ko alam kung pano ko nadaya yung leche flan. har.basta ang galing. har. hindi ko matandaan ang highest score ko all in all. yun ay dahil i just scanned my card pagkakuha ko. (actually, algeb ung una kong tinignan at hindi ko na tinignan yung iba). anyway, i miss my classmates na. sobra. gusto ko nang pumasok uli. lagi kasi akong pinapaglinis pag vacation... e diba tamad pa naman ako..anyway..bahala na...

HAVE A GREAT SUMMER GUYS!!

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Now the bridesmaid..

okie, maid of honor naman. kaya nga wala ako for one week (next week) ay dahil uuwi kaming Vigan para mag- participate sa wedding. har. hindi ko nga kilala yung ikakasla eh... tapos maid of honor daw ako. malay ko ba kung sino yun. pero anyway, at least makakabalik ako sa Vigan after like, 12 years. har. magkakalesa nga ako. pero di na sa beach, ok? may phobia na ako sa mga PUBLIC beaches. may bad experience ako sa mga matataong mga baybayin. kaya nga last year, sa private beach kami sa puerto galera nag-stay dahil ayoko talaga. whew. mahabang kwento. at hindi magandang ikwento sa blog. kaya next time nalang. anyway, excited na talaga ako. lalo na mahaba daw yung Vigan Cathedral, eh di mahaba-haba rin yung lalakarin ko. hehe. basta..excited nanga ako. kasi makakakakita na uli ako ng mga old houses (parang yung bahay namin hindi "old" diba..). anyway, marami naraw mga pagbabago dun since i last went (1994). meron na raw silang chowking at jolibee at greenwich. wahaha. (parang wala silang ganun sa manila diba..) a basta..aun na un. tas gagawa raw kami ng mga pots na clay at pupunta sa mga old as in OLD na mga churches (naghanap ba naman ng multo..). aun. excited na nga me. and then pupuntahan namin yung may tigers na place. hwathevah. basta. excited na me. wag niyo lang ako papuntahin sa beach na PUBLIC dahil KAHIT KELAN AY HINDI NINYO AKO MAPAPALANGOY SA MGA BEACH NA NAGPAPAUPA NG SALBABIDANG GULONG AT MAY MGA LUMULUTANG NA KUNG ANU-ANO. 'nuff said.

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hindi pala kilala sa germany si sam milby (or "ang hirap talaga pag ang bes'preh mo ay nasa ibang bansa at walang kaalam-alam kung sinu-sino na ang sikat dito dahil wala na siyang pakialam dahil meron na syang German guy." ) (or "ang hot talaga ni ashley parker, to hell with his girlfriend")

tumawag ang bes'preh ko nung isang linggo at sabi niya na there's this german guy who's courting her daw. nasa dating stage na raw sila ngayon. hayup. akala ko ba nagaaral siya. wahaha. 2 years older daw than her. so mga 2nd year college daw. darn. iba na talaga. haha! pero anyway, i'm happy for her. haha. since may tatlo siyang failed relationships dati dito sa 'pinas at may bf siya bago umalis. (yak!binubulgar ko na o!haha!).
anyway, binangit ko to sakanya. hindi raw nya kilala si sam milby. haha! like, hello! ang status ko panga sa y!m dati ay Bennette Milby. ok.

WALANG MAGV-VIOLENT REACTION. WALA KAYONG PAKI DUN AH. BATA PA NAMAN AKO.

HAHA!oo naman, ang cute ya eh. haha. oo na, jologs na kung jologs. eh sa ganun eh! (achka si Ashley!god, sorry, nakalimutan ko siya!)

speaking of ASHLEY..
medjo naunahan ako ng bes ko dahil nauna nyang narinig ung LET U GO (check out the video on my last post) bago ko pa un nakita sa trl. anyway, aun. kung di lang kasi preggy ang girlfriend nya eh.. see!! may girlfriend nanga siya, pregnant pa! at all-out support sila sa birth ng little gremlin nila. wahaha! ansama ko. pero gets... haha!! eto ung isang example ng irony ko na ugly babe, hot dude or ugly dude, hot babe. gets??!??!? aun na un! sa kaso namin ni Ashley (o ni sam), hindi yan mangyayari. hahahahahahaha!! *plays let u go video*

waaaaah!!XD

".. i remember when.. you came to me late at night.. you said forever you'd never let me go.."

"oh why don't you smile my only staaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!"

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this morning's countdown..(or "what the heck.. this band REALLY sucks..")

DISCLAIMER: OPINIONS EXPRESSED IN THIS POSTS ARE SOLELY THE AUTHOR'S. DON'T OPPOSE IF YOU'RE A DIE-HARD LOVER OF KYUU-SHEY.

while i was doing my usual morning work- outs (the one to blame for my aching knees right now), i opened the t.v and came across the top 10 countdown. buti nalang may simultaneous showing dahil wala kaming cable. anyway, eto ang mga reaksyon ko. una, napakagaling ng sandwich!! woohooo!!! sugod mga kapatid!tayo ay magsama-sama!iwagayway na ang bandera!rak en roll hanggang umaga!! aun! basta! wahaha! ang ganda rin talaga ng lead vocalist ng pussycat dolls (check out the video on my previous post). she's proudly pinay.. and so sexy. grabe. kung may magagawa lang ako para maging parang siya!grabe! ang ganda nya kasi!
anyway, hindi ko alam pero for the 1st time ay na-apriciate ko ang kanta ni christian bautista. hehe.appreciate with a capital A. ok? hindi ako sasali sa yahoo groups nya and stuff.. dontcha think of those stuff. maganda lang talaga yung song nyang bago. wehehe. aun.
anyway, nakakaantok ang bagong kanta ng hale at parang wala sa tono. (no offense, gsto ko rin ng hale kaso hindi ang kantang 'to.) tas nakakaantok yung video na lagi ko ring nakikita kaya hindi ko na pinanood yun.

nakakainis ang acoustic version ng narda.

anyway, eto na. kanina ko pa kasi naririnig ang ULAN ng cueshe' at naririndi na ang ears ko. kyuu-shay na yan. basa ko panga dati dyan eh kyuuush.. as in accent on the 'u'. har. ayoko talaga sa kanila. ok na sana ng narinig ko ang stay eh. kaso nakita ko pa sila kaya talagang todo-piss off. lalo na yung vocalist nila. leche. nakakainis talaga. tas yung mga kanta nila, parang parepareho lang ang tono. har. har. tas nangaaway daw sila ng ibang banda at drop-out daw sila sa cebu. hay nako. sorry, but i really don't like their music. gosh, kung narinig nyo ang "acoustic version" ng stay ay parang hindi siya acoustic kundi pinalitan lang ng banjo yung electric guitars. har. pero nasa ipod ko yung kanta nila. haha!! may dahilan kasi kung bakit sila nasa ipod ko.. dahil kahit gaano ko kinaaayawan ang cueshe' ay pilit ko dapat silang magustuhan.

(this post to be concluded)

2006-04-07T16:14:00.000+08:00

o..new fave songs.. asa friendster ko rin to..hindi naman fave..aliw lang...(ang *hot* ni Ashley!!)

hanggang dito nalamang ako

2006-03-23T20:17:00.000+08:00

PROLOGUE: ..tama ba?dito NALANG?

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may mga bagay- bagay na hindi na dapat iniisip o inaalintana. pero sadya mo paring maiisip ang mga bagay na un, dahil madalas itong pagusapan o basta mo nalang maalala. minsan, just the thought of not thinking about it reminds you about it na.

..tapos bigla ka nalang maiinis sa sarili mo kung bakit yun pa.

oo..hanggang dito nalang talaga ang kaya kong gawin sa pilit na paglimot. hanggang dito nalang talaga. kasi kung pipilitin ko pa ang sarili ko, hindi ko na alam ang magagawa ko.

oo, malabo na kung malabo.
pero aun na talaga eh.
siguro kelangan ko nang magbura ng mga kanta sa ipod ko.
pampadagdag din yun eh.

"i'm so sick of love songs
so tired os tears
so done of wishing
you were still here.
said i'm so sick of love songs
so sad and slow
so why can't i turn off the radio.."

i dunno why too...

..maybe that song is what keeps me going.

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mga song liness na nakaka- relate ako (in no particular situation..marami kasi akong inaalala ngayon, halo-halo na dyan un):

5)
I couldn't tell you
why she felt that way
she felt it everyday
and i couldn't help her
i just watched her make the same mistakes again
what's wrong
what's wrong now?
too many
too many problems
don't know where she belongs
where she belongs

4)
i used to get lost in your eyes
and it seems that i can't live a day without you
closing my eyes
and you would chase my thoughts away
so please where i am blinded by the light
well it's not right

3)
i was young
but i wasn't naive
i watched helpless
as you turned around to leave
but still i had the pain
i had to carry
a past so deep
that even you couldn't burry if you tried

2)
anung sarap
kami'y naging magkaibigan
napuno ako ng pagasa
yun pala hanggang dun lang ang kaya
akala ko ay pwede pa
masakit mang isipin
kailangang tanggapin
kung kelan ka naging seryoso
saka ka niya
gagaguhin

1)
if you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
or the moment of truth in your lies
when everything feels like the movies
yeah you bleed
just to know you're alive

>>>if you could only read this... siguro...*sigh*

..wala paring magbabago, ayt? coz the cut that you've done left a mark. and to think wala pa tayong isang buwan.
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anyway, moving on.
tama na yan, dun naman tayo sa lighter side.
(ocge na, paalam na kay ex..)

hindi ko alam kung bakit dumadalas ang pagiisip ko sakanya.
siguro kasi bakasyon na and im holding on to the thought na baka (note: BAKA/MAYBE) magkita kami uli.

alam ko hindi natutuloy yung mga pakikita namin sa summer (proven yan these past years) pero gets...

un nalang talaga ang wish ko.
sana magkita kami uli.
if you guys read my posts nung january, yeah, it's the same guy who's been taking me in a spin.
yuuh, alam ko hindi nagtagal ang 'nakaraang' nangyari ngayon.
pero, gets...
hindi ko naman inaasam na maging girlfriend nya ako or something.
ang masaklap kasi dun...

...para sakanya kapatid nya lang ako.
yuuuhh...
sa ilang taong pagkikita namin, nakita ko kung pano nya ituri ang mga kapatid nyang gurls. at ganon din siya sa akin.
oo, nag-uusap kami about stuff and all.
we have so much in common nga eh.
pero aun talaga...

the last thing i heard about him was that he just broke up with his girlfriend.
and that when he courted that girl (or some other girl), he really went to the house of that girl. as in. aun na talaga.

oo, hindi siya yung guy who'd surely blow you off pag nakita mo.
hindi siya ganun sa looks. hindi rin siya marunong mag gitara (tang na..eto pa naman ang gusto ko!). the school that he's studying in? well.. let's just say it's among the 4 best universities in the country.

hinanap ko na siya sa friendster, pero wala talaga.
i dunno...
nagaantay ba ako ng false hope?
ayoko nanamang maghintay sa ganun.

pero kami...
para kasing pag kausap ko siya parang napakadali ng lahat kahit na nahihiya ako. seryoso.
smitten na kung smitten.

hindi ako patay na patay sa kanya.
pero..

well...

ewan!
basta! haha..
and to think madalang kami magkita.
sobrang dalang.
ang masaklap parin kasi dun ay parang kapatid niya lang talaga ako.
hindi pa close friend ah.
sabagay.. hindi pa kami masyadong magkakilala para iconsider na close friends.
aun na un.

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EPILOGUE: just some bitter ends and hopefully sweet beginnings..

TAGBOARD.

oanoto

2006-03-21T21:37:00.000+08:00

Your Luck Quotient: 64%

You have a high luck quotient.

More often than not, you've felt very lucky in your life.

You may be randomly lucky, but it's probably more than that.

Optimistic and open minded, you take advantage of all the luck that comes your way.

How Lucky Are You?

life's one god-damned, effing playground

2006-03-21T20:31:00.000+08:00

PROLOGUE: title says all, folks..
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vacation na.
and i still find it hard to find time to update my blog.
i don't know why, pero these past few days had been kinda rough for me. sometimes, i just find myself staring into complete blankness, listening to my ipod and thinking of sentimental thoughts about..well..never mind.
i know i shouldn't be worried about my grades. i won't fail. i know.
and i decided that i'd stop worrying about my application, since i know i won't get accepted.
and the more that i shouldn't care about some stuff that i have no god-damned right to meddle with.
i've been angsty in my last posts. i dunno..maybe it's because i've been thinking and worrying about so many things that should'nt be bothered with.
but i;m reminded of some things that really, really bother me. and yes, i enjoy listening to my ipod but when i shuffle the songs and a certain song comes along that kinda relates me with what stuff i'm dealing now.....

i dunno.
i just bite my lip and sigh.
then i smile.
(my fingers tremble as i type this entry)

i don't know. i guess i'm scared. i'm scared of what will happen soon..

...or what might NEVER happen.

i don't know why, but i've been wondering... just wondering...
..if i see myself the way others do.
yeah, i've been loud, enthusiastic and i've been a BITCH, you know it.
at certain times, i've made some people's lives miserable, yeah, yeah.
and at certain times people made MY life hell incarnate.
balance of nature nga diba?
as a matter of fact, i think people think of me as a no use slut.
haha.
i think that's an overstatement.
ok, sige na. tama na ang ilusyon.
hindi ko na yata kayang ituloy my entry..
i;m tamad na.
haar.
so long.

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EPILOGUE: o diyus ko, anu ba naman ito..diba, tangina..nagmuka akong tanga...

yes, virginia. there is such a thing as doubt, even in my ever-so-confident self.

2006-03-15T21:05:00.000+08:00

PROLOGUE: nagaaral ng english habang nagta-tytpe at nanganganib na ang net card ko.
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hindi ko na alam ang susunod dito sa crossword puzzle.
ngaun ko lang naalala na hindi ko nakopya kay tricia ang buong LP.
grabe, ang tanga ko.
pano ako magaaral ngaun?
manghuhula ako?
haay nako..
puyatan na talaga now....
bahala na..
algeb talaga inaral ko kanina ng todo.
1st of 2 parts un, mehn!
(wala nang paki sa pinoy..jueng!)
bio naman, naaral ko na.
a.p.. i'll just rely on sheer luck.
ayan...
mabilisan na..
i hafta go offline na.
magaaral pa ko.
jueng!

yup.. i'm starting to doubt na kung tama ang gagawin ko.

pahabol muna o....

2006-03-14T18:19:00.000+08:00

PROLOGUE: tough week..darn. andaming nawalang pera, andaming nasayang na energy, andaming kelangan aralin.. haaay..last week nanga alng nagkakandarapa pa akong humabol..
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before i begin reviewing, i'm gonna update first for my *ahem* avid readers.(yaak!nagf-feeling! malay nyo meron talagang may gustong magbasa ng blog ko,no matter how god-damned boring it is..)
antagal ko na kasing hindi nakakapag-update (matagal na pala ang halos 1 week?) kaya medjo dadalian ko lang ito dahil mag-aaral pa ako ng ALGEBRA (note: ALGEBRA LANG.WALA NANG IBA.MAHAL KO YAN EH.WALANG KOKONTRA.ANG KUMONTRA KAMUKA NI MADAM AURING..ashuu!juengers!).

well, speaking of my FAVORITE SUBJECT (oo,paborito ko yan kahit bumabagsak ako), i just got a low score in the ut2 result kanina. haay..kasi naman, pag papa-exam ninyo ako ng algeb, kelangan WALA KAYONG SASABIHIN NA PROBLEMA BAGO ANG TESTS..kaya tuloy nagkakanda-leche leche eh.. after test nyo nalang sabihin..see..nasayang ang 4 days na pagaaral ko dahil sa pesteng monetary problem na yan. dapat kapag mag e-entrance test ako for college, WALA KAYONG SASABIHING PROBLEMA, kahit na pagkain for lunch ang problemang yun dahil madidistract ang utak kong nakaprogram ng maayos. okie? mga lechers tlaga... *sigh* wala na eh.. nagawa ko na ang grade ko..sayang ang pagaaral ko..now, algeb lang ang aaralin ko. the least i can do is make bawi in the qt or else baka sumadsad undergound ang mathematics ko(nakaramdam na si Stat na siya nalang lagi ang humihila kay Intermediate Algebra kaya sumuko narin siya).

sobra...pagod talaga ko..para ninyo akong binugbog at ginulpi, mga 'pre... nakers...... saan ba makakahanap ng kapayapaan?
(rhetorical question)
sana pagkatapos ng exam ay TAPOS NA LAHAT. summer na. magre-review ako after a month. wala na pala s......
ok..ayan na..bubuksan ko nanaman ang topic na yan..
kasi.. filing ko talaga alm nyo na kung sino ang paulit- ulit kong binabangit dito sa mga posts ko. ito siguro ang huli kong post bago malaman ng buong madla at bago ko ikamatay.
madali lang naman malaman kung sino yun..
sobra.
kung alam niyo na ang mga pnagbabababangit ko ritong mga pangyayari ay may kuneksyon sakanya, then congratulations! kilala mo na ang taong tinatawag naming 2 years.. juengers..
(ang kukulit ng mga tao sa YM.. log- in ng log- in tapos mag l-log out..juengers talaga kayo..)
anyway... aun..
kung alam niyo na kung sino siya, pwedeng manahimik muna kayo at itanong/confirm nyo nalang sa akin na siya un kesa dumeretso kayo sakanya dahil ang isasagot lang niya sa inyo ay

"weh?! di nga?!"

(clue na yan.. grabe, give away na 'to mga 'pre.. e ang dali- dali nanga nyan eh.. juengers kung di nyo pa ma-gets)

so..... aun...
magtanong muna akyo sakin ah?
(at siguraduhin niyong nagsasabi ako ng totoo pag sinagot ko kayo)

anyways, darn.. wla naman masyado mangyayari this week except tests and the -well- aun...
grabe.. na-clear ang wallet ko ng 3 500php in 24 hours.. ang bilis!grabe! pinakamalaking loss ko sa 1st quarter of 2006..(uy!economic analyst, is datchu?!?!!?)
so, aun....
pahabol na post to dahil hindi detailed at wala pa akong masasabi hangga't di ko pa nasasabi..dun...yah..

sa friday, siguro (kung may net card pa ako) emosyonal na ang susunod na post ko.

GOOD LUCK SA MGA MAG E-EXAM FOR THE NEXT 3 DAYS....
don't stress much...
STRESS EVEN MORE!!WAHAHAHA!!!

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EPILOGUE: ayan... magluluto pa ako...

ANG DI MAGPOST KAMUKA NGA NI MADAM AURING... juengers!hehe!!

2006-03-12T15:35:00.000+08:00

o mga pare ko..meron akong problema...

2006-03-09T19:05:00.000+08:00

PROLOGUE: anu, repeat performance ba itoh..?
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kung kelan ka NAGING SERYOSO, saka ka niya GAGAGUHIN...

tama ba ako?

haha...

oo nga...

ano..kinikilabutan nanaman ako...

ayan nanaman...

muli namang umihip sa akin ang hangin ng pagiisa..

WAHAHA...

minsan HINDI KO MAININDIHAN..

parang ang buhay natin ay NAPAGTITRIPAN...

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EPILOGUE: ngiti naman oh...

your smile is gently freezing...

2006-03-06T19:49:00.000+08:00

PROLOGUE: impending English and Pinoy MQTs tomorrow, unknown fate in the pool... what more could i ask for..
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naranasan mo na ba yung pagbibigay mo ng sobra-sobra sa isang tao (whether materially or anu mang support) kahit na tinatangihan na niya pero cge parin dahil... well...reasons are unknown?
ako kasi oo.
nakakainis.
kung may plano kayo na gawin un, wag nyo na ituloy.
mahihirapan lang kayo.
maiinis pa kayo, kasi it seems na that the more you try to stop yourself from giving in ay lalo kang itinutulak ng traidor mong sarili.
kawol.
hindi naman sa habol mo ay masuklian ang lahat ng ginagawa mo, pero napapaisip ka kung TAMA pa ba ang ginagawa mo o katarantaduhan lang.
minsan, magdedebate ka pa sa utak mo at iisa-isahin sa iyo ang mga dahilan kung bakit tama at justifiable ang ginagawa mo o kung bakit kabobohan lang ang paghabol mo sakanya.

i've been playing this fucking game for 3 years, not wanting to stop or to keep on. i'm in between what the call imbecility and concern. i try to be unwary of what's been happening to me, if it's all right to keep on going or to stop. i've been saying these things over and over, i know you're damn tired of it.
and when this game comes to a close, you'll realize that you never had an opponent. that you're just battling with yourself in trying to keep that person with you. it doesn't sound like free will, eh?

no, it doesen't.

i swore that this is my last concern about such stuff, and that i will never bother myself again with these useless matters. but i only have 9 days to go. 9 days to prove to myself that what i;ve been doing for the past 3 years was right. 9 days to end something that seems like i've found only a habit of doing instead of taking it seriously. 9 days to end with the beginning. 9 days to prove what i'm made of. 9 days to make YOU realize what i've been doing for the past 5 motherfucking years.

sounds like a lot, right?
yes, it's a lot.
i'm laying myself at the mercy of the very thing that i'm only concerned about.
and that person doesn't god damn care.
i'm making my life complicated, i know. but it's what YOU made me. and you never knew. you never knew.

yeahm i still have 9 days.. sounds like all the time in the world... before i tell you that it's been you all along.. the person you;ve been trying to guess who. then what?

let's see who walks out first on that fucking day.

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EPILOGUE: obviously, i wasn't able to do what i was able to do during the legacy.. so, there... gotta run.

hyaak!!anu bah?!?!?!?!

2006-03-04T18:40:00.000+08:00

2 years, 9 months

2006-03-04T17:54:00.000+08:00

PROLOGUE: ito na kaya ang huling post ko bago ako tuluyang mag-goodbye?o id-delay ko nanaman ng ilang taon?
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legacy na mamaya.
at andito pa ako nagt-type bago matapos ang mundo.
(unless binabasa mo 'to after the legacy,then you are SOOO YESTERDAY!!)
haay nako..
cgro naman gets nyo na ang pinagbababangit ko dito sa mga posts ko the pasts few days.
di pa?
hay nako, you are, like, you know, so yestersay!
haha..joke lang..
baka yun lang maka-getz nun..har..neon ba naman ang i-post ko dito na lyrics..duhuhuy!
anyweiz, ayan, mananahimik na kaya ako o hindi pa?
anlabo,,,,
xe naman eh..
ang labo talaga!
yaak!
haay nako...
mamaya pa akong 6:30 pupunta.
like, ano gagawin ko dun, tutunganga?
tsk,tsk,tsk.
habol ko lang naman ung bamboo at ung hale at medjo ung itchyworms.
wala na akong pake (kahit i-justify nyo pa na sasayaw si marina..nako,baka masira na ang stage...).
makikita ko na ang aking ex-bf na si fafa champ.
waha!ang kapal mo talaga bennette. c:

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anyway, notice my title.
dun sa mga may cd ng 6 cycle mind na Panorama, ung 1st song na title dun ay "4 years, 9 months".
it's a very short and *kinda* sad song.
i'll paste the lyrics here.

sino ang nagsabing 'di ka maiiwanan?
sino ang nagsabing 'di ka malilimutan?
sino ang nagsabing 'di ba wala?
kundi ang pag-ibig mong naniwala
kundi ang pag-ibig kong naniwala...

ayan...
haha..wala... yung akin, 2 years 9 months.
haha.. anlabo.
at neon ung akin, ok?
haha....
grabe, ayoko na yatang pumuntang legacy.
tinatamad na ako.
pero kailangan eh.
may nag- gud luck nanga sa kin. (jupa talaga...)
haha...
cge, sana magka-guts na ako ngaun.
kundi,,,,
ewan ko na talaga!

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EPILOGUE: etonaetonaetonaetonaetonaetona!!

ANG DI MAG TAG..uhm....KAMUKHA NI ETHEL BOOBA!!! BWAHAHAHA!!!

give in or just give up

2006-03-03T18:08:00.000+08:00

PROLOGUE: the worst week ever... or is it?
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been through A LOT this week, and i meant A LOT.
we had our reco and exams and all those bull..
damn.
sana i passed bio.
sana i passed a.p na pinagaralan ko mula 8pm hanggang 1:30am.
sana makahanap na ako ng magandang printing press.
sana..
sana..
sana...

puro nalang ako "sana".
pero wala naman akong ginagawa.
lagi kong sinasabi sa sarili ko na "Dude, go on.. may mangyayari din."
pero may nangyari ba?
sa loob ng ilang taon naghintay ako.
sa loob ng 9 na buwan nagaabang ako.
sa loob ng 24 oras ay matatapos na ang paghihintay ko.
sana.
sana this time around i have the fucking guts to let it all out.
kung gaano ako kagalit, kainis at kasaya kapag kasama.
malabo no?
gets nyo?
wag nyo nang subukan.
kasi kahit IKAW, hindi mo maintindihan.

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EPILOGUE: mother f*****, i was supposed to write something baout our reco but it turned out differently. siguro ganto talaga pag nar-realize mo na hinuhukay mo na ang libingan mo.

ANG DI MAG-TAG KAMUKA NI MYSTICA.HAHAHA!!!

senti ba itoh...NEON

2006-02-28T19:38:00.000+08:00

PROLOGUE: ano ba ang kailangan mong maramdaman? tuwa at pananabik para sa iyong sarili o lungkot at panghihinayang para sa ibang tao?
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your smile is GENTLY FREEZING
snow throws it away
YOU'RE THE LAUGHTER IN MY SILENCE
the COLD THAT KEEPS ME AWAKE
green towel is soft spoken
your THOUGHTS YOU NEVER KNOW
YOUR LIES AND EMPTY PROMISES
I'LL DO THE MORE FOR YOU (ahem,ahem)

how does it feel?
HOW IS IT THAT I CAN FEEL
coz i..
I NEED TO KNOW..

coz i..
I KNOW I CAN NEVER BE ENOUGH
TO REPLACE YOUR WHATEVER
and i..
i think it's shiny and blue
like a dance that's see through
coz i..
I KNOW I CAN NEVER BE ENOUGH
TO REPLACE YOUR WHATEVER
now EVERYTHING IS SILENT
AND EVERYTHING IS STILL WITHOUT YOU NEAR

everything about you
the worl was something new
AND I WAS THERE AT THE OPEN
WELL JUST TO BE WITH YOU
but everytime i see the shelter
and everytime i walk away
YOU'RE THE LAUGHTER IN MY SILENCE
THE COLD THAT FEEDS MY DAY

how does it feel?
HOW IS IT THAT I CAN FEEL
coz i..
I NEED TO KNOW..

coz i..
I KNOW I CAN NEVER BE ENOUGH
TO REPLACE YOUR WHATEVER
and i..
i think it's shiny and blue
like a dance that's see through
coz i..
I KNOW I CAN NEVER BE ENOUGH
TO REPLACE YOUR WHATEVER
now EVERYTHING IS SILENT
AND EVERYTHING IS STILL WITHOUT YOU NEAR

and everytime i se you passing by
I'LL JUST STAY HERE WAITING FOR YOU
and i will talk to myself on a lazy sunday afternoon
AND I'LL STILL SAY THAT PRAYER FOR YOU
I'LL BE A LITTLE BIT PROUD OF ME
WHILE TRYING TO BE SO PERFECT
YOU'LL SEE
and NOTHING CAN COMPARE TO YOU
WHATEVER LIES OT THERE

there's no one here...
there's no one here...
there's no one here...
there's no one here...
there's no one here...
THERE'S NO ONE...
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EPILOGUE: one of my fave songs... just in the mood to put it here..haha...ahem...

kinukunsinte mo nanaman.. [SCHIZOPHRENIC SESSIONS]

2006-02-26T16:48:00.000+08:00

PROLOGUE: libre lang mangarap.
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--:ano,makikipag-away ka nanaman?

++:magsisimula nanaman ba tayo?

--: kasi umiiral nanaman yang pagdududa mo sa kanya..

++: normal lang yun...

--: tandaan mo tong ginawa niya ah... tapos pagsisisishan mong di ka nakinig saakin.

++: basta amsaya siya..yun lang naman ang gusto mo diba?

--: hinid yun sapat..ikaw naman yung di masaya.

++: sabi mo lang pag masaya siya, masaya ka narin?

--: pero bakit ka parin nagaalangan?

++:hindi mo alam...

--:damn you...

++:hayaan mo na.. may napasaya k namang tao..

--:to your extent.

++: ayaw mo na?

--:sumuko ka na.

hindi pwede eh...dito lang ako sasaya.

--: tang'na mo.

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EPILOGUE: damn... di pa ako nagaaral for istat...

ANG HINDI MAG-TAG, PANGEEEEEEEEEEEEET!!!!

BIO TRIP AFTERMATH

2006-02-25T15:08:00.000+08:00

PROLOGUE: still tired... -yawn-
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unlike my other classmates, i am not going to delve into detailed stories about our biology trip, since that would probably take me a week if i type in the whole story [from Feb 23 @ 5:00am to Feb 24 @ 3:00 pm]. anyway, it was fun. our facilitators were really kwela, though i think that they deserve a better job than what they have now [ay..si maawain..]. anyway, i really enjoyed the bus ride to and from batangas. on the way, sa stop over, nakita namin ang PAROKYA [without vinci] at KAMIKAZE [pero si jake lang ata nakita ko]. akiko and i even had our pic taken with chito miranda sa petron grocery. tapos, ang breakfast at lunch in one ko ay sausage mc muffin.aus. tas we went snorkeling. tangina. ang bagal ko mag-breast stroke. naawa tuloy ako sa snorkeling buddy ko dahil kami yung nahuhuli..haaaay...
during the afternoon, we went trekking on this jungle-infested island. pfff...akala ko wala pang sibilisasyon dun, aun pala may water pipes na sila dun to channel out the..duh..water.. tss..
kinodakan ko yung mga goat. meh.neh.
henyhwey, muntik na kaming walang makain for dinner, dahil isang ungrateful little cretin ang nagtaggal ng pagkain namin sa cooler ng kaklase ko.kaya pala hinalungkat na namin ang lahat ng coolers eh di pa namin nakikita.aun pala, nasa sahig lang pala.tsk,tsk.
nagkaroon ng konting game,nanalo section namin sa second game. nung gabi na, ang ganda ng view ng horizons. kitang-kita ang mga ilaw ng Batangas Industrial port at Mangingisda Society sa gabi. tanaw din ang kurap-kurap ng isang parola. at tulad nga ng sabi ng friend ko, parang uulan ng stars kapag tumingala ka.
kaya tuloy di maiwasan ng mga kaklase ko na magpaka-senti sa tabi ng dagat. naiyak tuloy ako..sa dahilang di ko pwedeng sabihin..tsk.
anyway, nakatulog ako ng konti, kahit napaka-weird ng aking posisyon..grabe..sinsumpa ko ang tent. salamat sa kumporter ni iya, kundi patay na ako.
hehe.
tapos, the next day, nakihingi nalang ako ng mga cereals sa iba't ibang tao [yun lang naman ang ginagawa ko..manlimos dahil wala akong dalang mga pagkain]. kaya, aun na ung umagahan ko. tas nabalitaan naming walang pasok sa school. dahil sa coup d'etat... haaay... astig ng bio trip namin no? kala ko nga, war na sa kamaynilaan eh..aun pala, isa nanamang pagaalsang nauwi sa sawi. haay.
anyway, di na kami nag-starbucks pauwi, dahil sa kaartehan ng mga teachers namin. pero mayroon talagang mga pasaway,at hindi naman sial sianway.. ililibre nga sana ako kaso lang wala na ako sa mood nun..sayang![pero malilibre parin naman ako sa legacy..haha!!yes, im going na po...] tapos, aun na... medyo matrapik sa SLEX dahil may mga check point at may traffic sa water dam dahil hindi kami dumman ng EDSA-C5 dahil nga sa mga taong nag r-rally.

"Pag naging presidente ako, pagsisisishan ninyo ang araw na sinira niyo ang field trip ko!!"

"nako..lagot na..anu na mangyayari sa Pilipinas?!??!"

har. anyway, aun, medyo matagal ang bus ride. yung facilitator naming *heartthrob ng iba* ay joke ng joke, kahit alam na namin ung iba at ung iba naman ay saksakan ng kakornihan. pfff.

so aun, nagtapos ang adventure ng bio trip namin pagdating ng hapon.
saya no?
pero hindi pa dito nagtatapos ang araw ko.
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EPILOGUE: tinatamad na ako mag-continue, kaya baka mamaya nalang uli ako mag-post...chaka...

TAGBOARD,FIFOL.

rants.

2006-02-20T18:46:00.000+08:00

PROLOGUE: i am trying to squeeze 30 minutes of today to type in an entry.. haaay...for the sake of my -ahem- "avid" readers..
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he stared at the ground, his dark-brown hair falling to his eyes. he couldn't hide his smile. there, about some meters away from him, was the person he was longing to be with..the person he was wanting to know. the person he would like to spend the whole afternoon sitting on the steps of his school building without a word to each other. the person he would never, ever have. and yet, even though she was so near, he seemed as if she's a lightyear away, and there would be no chance of her noticing him, especially amongst the sea of people where he was already drowning.
she glanced his way and smiled as he looked up.
he loved her, though he isn;t quite sure that she knows his existence.
he fell for her charm, her looks, her... oh, damn. he thought.

he fell for everything she was.

her smile faded, and she grinned.
someone probably told her a good joke.
when would the time come that HE'd be the one to make her laugh?
tomorrow?
the next year?
or..NEVER?

he never wanted to think that that day would never come.
he alaways woke with the hopes that that day would be the day that their "chance meeting" would happen. yet, so far, a year has passed..and she never noticed that he was THERE.

as she smiled again, he thought of the day when she would freely give him-and only to him- that smile that he was stealing right now.

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haaaaay.....

i'm so freaking excited of the bio trip.. grabe!
sino bang hindi!
pero may mga quizzes pa akong haharapin, at test result na sisilayan bukas.
tssss......
bahala na...

"pupunta ako sa jungle..magdadala ako ng..uhm...phone! anong dadalhin mo para makapasok?"

THE MOST LOGIC-INFESTED DAY OF MY LIFE.

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EPILOGUE: TAGBOARD....;P

sino kaya 'tong lecheng to...

2006-02-18T22:14:00.000+08:00

PROLOGUE: haaay nako, mag p-post nga uli ako bago mag-sign off..let's just hope na hindi magloko ang net namin...
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totoo na to...

IAMNOTGOINGTOTHELEGACY.

because 1)i lack funds; 2)may makikita ako at 3) may hindi ako makikita. labo no?hehe... aun talaga pag sineseryoso mo na ang mga nalalabing panahon sa schoolyear na to. kahit si bamboo manalac at ang ex mo ay isasakripisyo mo nang huwag makita para lang hindi mo makita at para i-try mo silang makita... labo no? haha.... ilang linggo nalang at tapos na ang lahat. sophomore year is done. in 3 months, i'll be registered as a Junior and a month later, i'll be wlaking the halls as one [God willing]. I still wonder:
will sec. 4 still stick like PVC glue?
will i be retained there?
will i ever get through algebra?
will i survive chemistry and trigonometry?
will our batch move to the floor above?
will i find a decent date to the prom?
will something change next school year?
will that person miss me?

i'm not quite sure of the other questions, except for the last [which is a NO]. i still smile whenever i remember all the things that happened this schoolyear,,, i've met so many people, i've learned so many things, i've failed an algebra test [and am about to..again], i've learned a new sport, i got defeated in my own game, i've been shamed, i 'disbanded' myself from a clique, i got paranoid becaise of a stupid letter, i've finally been to a soiree, i got a sun sim stuck in an extra phone, i sold my ipod, i got a new ipod, my ipod got destroyed, they replaced my ipod, i stood up for my right, i bullied, i'm being bullied, i made a blog, i bought a digicam with my very own hard-earned money, i've gotten fond of someone, i've gotten fond of someone...again, my crush is in UST, i'm an asst. committee head[and i probably won't next year], i've met such nice kids, i trpped, fell, slipped, slid and bumped. i stood up and shook the dust out. i smiled, i cried, i laughed, i guffawed, i've been through some really enormous bullshit.

and yeah, life, you are one great son of a bitch, 'coz i'm still alive.
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anyway,back to the not-going part.
i am only going if someone answers this question correctly:
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there. haha! anyway, only one person could persuade me to go.. ok, maybe 2..but the other one is a hopeless case, sicne i;m sure he doesn;t even know where i'm studying. so that leaves the 1st person.. haay... you don;t have to guess, coz it's written almost all over. if that person asks me to go, i would only refuse once, and knowing that that peron is really annoying i'm sure that perosn will annoy me to death and i;d say yes anyway. kaya nga di ko un matiis. haha. so, yun. person, if you;re reading this, i hope you won't find out who you are. or else you'll have to pay for my dinner that night, you bastard.

waaah!! but i really,really,really wanna go! i mean, yeah! but there are reasons, and these reasons are stated above. if i'll go, i'd probably just look through that wire fence that ecloses the field, so i could just get a glimpse of my ex. who'd be performing as a major band [yak!filing!]. but i won't go in. har. why am i saying this in my blog. e di pag nabasa to ng taong un, kukulitin nya ko hanggang kamatayan. sana hindi nya basahin to. leche.

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NEWSFLASH: i just found out that my cousin and his friends are gonna endorse bench, levis, rexona & chucks [infos from my titas who got it from my uncle dear]. wow. i guess some people really wanna see more of them. haha.that is so cool. i mean, i'd love to endorse those things [kahit na rexona pa yun] and my cuz is really lucky..haha! grabe, how time flies...

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i'm so excited to watch Close To You! alan kong makaka-relate nanaman ako! [really, bennette..nakaka-relate ka naman ata sa alhat ng baagy eh..] u've seen the trailer a gazillion times being played in channel 2 and i really think it's gonna be quite satisfactory. we're planning to watch it in gateway, so it better be GOOD!!!!

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i bought a new adidas wallet kanina, and my dad got mad. i;m getting quite spend-y na raw. har.. minsan nanga ako magpabili sa signature eh..like the last time he oubht me an original pair of nike sneakers was like 2 years ago at hanggang ngayon ay hindi ko pa nalalabhan yun...haaayy... kaya aun, bawas na ang baon ko for the bio trip... oh, well... good luck naalng sakin..

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EPILOGUE: the computer's hanging, the net's getting crappy... oh well, my eyelids are drooping.. nyt...

TAGBOARD.

mangkukulam.lecheng internet na to...

2006-02-18T20:58:00.000+08:00

waha....

this is my 2nd entry tonight, kasi nabura yung una...

tangina!mas maganda ung una!!

lecheng isp to!!!

dn-dc ako!!!

haaar!!!

2006-02-12T18:34:00.000+08:00

Ang pelikulang Minsa'y Isang Gamu- gamo ay tila nagpapahiwatig sa sitwasyon ng pamilya ni Corazon (Nora Aunor) at iba pang mga naging biktima ng mga dayuhang sundalo sa Olongapo. Ayon kay Corazon, bagama't maliliit ang mga gamu-gamo ay hindi sila takot na lumapit sa apoy. Ang mga tauhan sa kwento ay hindi nasindak sa kapangyarihan na ipinapakita ng mga Amerikano. Gaya ng mga gamu-gamo, ang mga tauhan ay hindi natatakot na lumapit sa apoy; ang kalabanin ang mga taong alam nilang mas mataas at mas may kapangyarihan sa kanila. Ngunit hindi hahantong sa ganito sina Corazpn kung hindi lang naganap ang mga malalagim na pangyayari na nagtuklak sa kanila na kalabanin ang mga 'Kano.

Pangarap ni Corazon na iahon ang kanyang pamilya sa kahirapan, kaya naman siya'y nagbakasakaling matanggap sa Amerika bilang isang nars. Tapos pag siya'y natanggap bilang isang "U.S Citizen" ay ipepetisyon niya ang kanyang ina, lolo at nakakbabatang kapatid para manirahan na doon. Hangad din niyang isama si Boni- ang kanyang nobyo na nagbabakasakaling maging U.S Navy. Ngunit sa kasamaang palad ay naging biktima ang ina ni Boni ng isang mapangabusong Pilipinang gwardya sa Base. Kaya naman sa pagsampa ng kaso nila Boni ay ang pag-urong niya ng kanyang pangarap na maging isang sundalo ng Amerika.
Bagama't nalulungkot, itinuloy parin ni Corazon ang kanyang pag- alis. Ngunit sa bisperas ng kanyang paglisan ay napatay ang kanyang nakababatang kapatid na si Carlito. Napagkamalan daw itong babaoy damo. Dito lang itinigil ni Corazon ang kanyang 'pagbubulag-bulagan' sa mga tunay na nagaganap sa kanyang paligid na dulot ng mga Amerikano. Nagsampa siya ng kaso laban sa Amerikanong gwardya na bumaril kay Carlito ngunit sinabing ito'y 'inilipat na ng destino' kaya hindi na matutuloy ang kaso. Sa katapusan ay medyo nakamtan din ni Corazon ang kastarungan dahil sa isang insidente, ngunit parang hindi pa ito sapat para kabayaran sa buhay ng namatay na kapatid.

Bagama't ang kwento'y hindi hango sa tunay na buhay, ang sitwasyon na kinalalagyan ni Corazon at iba pang mga naging biktima ay naganap sa marami nating mga kababayan na nakatira malapit sa mga base militar ng mga 'Kano. Nagaganap ito sa iba;t ibang mga tao sa iba't ibang mararahas na paraan. Lalo na nung panahon ng nasirang Presidente Marcos.

Hindi lahat nf mfa Amerikanong dumaong dito ay mapangahas. Minsan pa nga'y mga Pilipino pa mismo ang nagmamagaling at nagpapahamak sa kapwa nila kababayan. Ngunit mayroon ding mga 'Kanong sadyang lubos- lubos na ipinapakita na mas nakatataas sila sa mga Pilipino kahit na nakatungtong sila dito sa ating lupain at ginagamit ang ating mga yaman. Sa kaso naman ng mga 'aksidenteng' pagpatay, para milang ginagamit ang mga kababayan natin bilang 'practice target' at kapag na- bull's eye ay palalabasin nilang 'aksidente' ito. Minsan pa nga'y aalukin pa nila ang pamilya ng namatayan ng pera para iurong ang demanda.
Nakakalungkot na may mga Pilipinong nadadaan sa pera. Pero meron din namang mga Pinoy na ipinaglalaban ang katarungan, katulad nila Corazon. Kahit na malaki ang kapalit nito sa kanila. Pinapakita na may pagpapahalaga at pagmamahal parin sila sa sariling kapwa at sa sariling bayan sa kabila ng pagkakataong umunlad dahil sa suhol. Ang pagtutulungan din ng Pinoy sa panahon ng kagipitan ay isa ring magandang pagpapahalaga na ipnakita sa pelikula.

Hindi ko lubos maisip kung bakit wala tayong laban sa sarili nating lupa. Sa atin ito, tayo dapat ang may karapatan at may kapangyarihan. Dayo lang naman ang mga 'Kano, kaya bakit tayo nagpapaapi sa kanila? Ilang ulit nang nasakop ang ating bansa, at lagi nating nagagawang ipaglaban ang ating kalayaan, minsa'y sa payapa pang paraan. Kaya hindi ko talaga lubos maisip kung bakit nagaganap ang mga karahasang ito. Katulad nalang ng gang rape na naganap sa Subic. Parang ang lumalabas pa ngayon ay mas may pagasang manalo ang mga 'Kano kaysa sa dalagang pilit na ginahasa. Ngayon, wala na akong naririnig ukol sa nasabing usapin. Sana naman ay hindi nadaan sa kung anong suhol ito.

Hindi masama na mamalagi dito ang mga 'Kano, dahil nakakatulong sila sa palitang dolyar, nakapagbibigay ng trabaho at nakakatulong sa ationg sariling Hukbong Pangsandatahan. Pero sana man lang ay makikita na ng gobyerno ang mga kasamaang maaaring madulot ng kanilang pananatili dito at kung meron man ay gawan na nila ng paraan bago pa ito lumala.

stress, i'm gonna marry you na talaga.

2006-02-10T20:36:00.000+08:00

PROLOGUE: my last post here was sorta-kinda-like(a)-may pagka- seryoso..haha..yup,i was quite depressed at that time.hanggang ngaun parin nman eh..enwei,i'd try to make this post as light-hearted as i can..harhar..
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i wasn't unable to update kasi the workload of everything-from academics to extracurriculars-was like,on my shoulders na (methaporically).

things YOURS TRULY's whining about:

>revised ip
-haaaar!!whoever invented the thesis anyway?
>175 ribbons
-thete's like 175 ribbons and maybe only 4 of us to make them...dammit..
>stat homework
-haha..now, i admit this is MY fault
>fil. essay
-kasalanan ko ba kung ayaw ng computer namin na magbasa ng diskette at kinurakot ko yung binigay ng dad ko na dapat pangbili ng ink?-oo.
[i'm just a poor girl,nobody loves me...]
so, aun na...aun na un...kala nyo easy-come-easy-go yan ah... may problema pa ako sa paghanap ng bag for the BIO TRIP!WALA AKONG PAMBILI!HHHAAAAAAAAAAAAARR!!!
[echo: she's just a poor girl from a poor family..]
and to top all of that, i (i mean we..) have tto make 175 ribbons for the teacher's day!harhar!
[spare her her life from this monstrocity...]

waha!bohemian rhapsody ba ito....

[galileo..galileo....]

since wala ako magawa and lots of peepz (well,sorta) had been asking me what's the real deal with IT...

haay nako...harr... anyway, it's time for the

FISH TALKS!!!
(clap,clap,clap)

your questions answered!

q#1
Gusto pa ba ni YT (yours truly) si FISH?
a:
nope.nope.nope.and that's the reason why i'm doing this 'special'..haha!!

q#2
Magkakilala ba si FISH at si YT-or at least man lang friends sila?
a:
nope.may mga attempts si YT na gawin un,kaso lang, muka na raw nakakahalata ung FISH,kaya nagback out si YT at ngayo'y gumagawa ng posts tungkol dun.

q#3
pano ba naging 'fond' si YT kay FISH?
a:
hindi rin niya alam. baka masyadong personal para ilagay dito sa blog..haha..ask niyo nalang si YT sa school..

q#4
sinong nakakaalam tungkol sa FISH-y stuff na to?
a:
kung di mo alam, alam ng buong madla 'to... malawak ang ocean, 'pre.

q#5
bakit FISH si FISH?
a:
haha...base sa isang Nasyonalismong Literatura na isinabuhay sa Sine noong mga dekada '70-80.. aya ni YT yung pangalan.pero wala na talaga siyang maisip.oo, jologs.

[footnotes: ang iba pang variations ng pangalan- tuna, spongebob, at ang latest: --------------...]

q#6
is there any way na ma-identify ko si FISH sa malayo?
a:
dude, you don't have to ask, coz if i give you the answer,wala na.

q#7
saan ang mga lugar na pwedeng hanapin un...?
a:
marami.here.there.everywhere.specifically sa DAGAT na MALAWAK.

q#8
bakit naaasar si YT dun?
a:
kasi...

BASAHIN NIYO YUNG ISANG PREVIOUS POST NI YT PARA MALAMAN NYO!!

q#9
is there any way that a normal citizen like me can help in improving the marine aquatic life?
a:
yes.and that is, by NOT throwing toxic wastes in the ocean. choose the marine breed that you'd like to terminate. TEKA,ANONG KUNEKSYON NITO?!??!?!

q#10
sino ba un..?
a:
haha...you wouldn't wanna know...
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anyway, moving on to more matters...

YEY!IM GOING TO BIG R TOMORROW!!
hehe...
i decided to do the sashes ("OPERATION DYOLOGS":ang pangit talaga ng isusulat...sorry..) in RP's Mocha Blends tomorrow with some of my Com.mates from 1st year.
kasiw alang 2nd year na willing pumunta...
[haay, sophies...mahal na mahal ko talaga kayo...]
anyway, we're gonna do those *stuff* ober there... chuchu... making around 86 sashes beats the crap outta me and methinks that come monday, i won't have my pretty fingers...sigh...
buti nalang at may mga tao sa freshies na willing tumulong (kapalit ng libre ko,xempers...everything comes with a price na ah...).
so, we're gonna do those sashes in Mocha Blends (amidst all those 'pakialameros' looking behind their backs and trying to catch up on what we're doing..DONTCHADARE!!!) and we'll be looking like some desperate girls from a desperate fan club of "Ulirang Guros"..har..(yes, that's what we're supposed to write in VERY NEAT ASSUMPTION SCRIPT, which, I am sad to say, is my waterloo).

and we're making them sashes after they give us tons of homeworks, killer quizzes and murderous examinations...haaay...the ironies of some nga naman..(hey!that's the title of my blog!!).

they'd better give us a DECENT grade after all these trouble...
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EPILOGUE: gotta do my homework na...I have the whole weekend for all of these OPERATION DYOLOGS stuff...
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TAGBOARD,people...

para sayo to, ___..at sa lahat ng mga namomroblema..

2006-02-07T20:03:00.000+08:00

ANG DEBATE SA UTAK NIYA...

--: may pa deba-debate ka pang nalalaman.. e aminin mo nang MASAMANG- MASAMA TALAGA ang loob mo sa kanya... paawa effect pa eh..

++: paawa effect..?e talaga namang naiiyak na siya nun, dahil ginaganun siya ni ~~.

--: aun nanga eh, LINELECHE KA NA NG "KAIBIGAN" MO, sige ka parin ng sige na may mabubuting madudulot yun..

++:bakit,masama bang makipagkaibigan kay ~?ganun nalang ba ang laki ng galit -i mean inis- mo kay ~? After all,tinulungan ka nysa na maghakot ng >ano
--: un lang naman ang ginawa nya duba? may natatandaan ka pabang ginawa nyang makabubuti sayo?

++: well, lagi ka niyang pinapasaya... lagi naman...

--: ULOL!may HABOL sayo un, kaya ka niya ginaganun...

++: bakit,hindi ka ba naniniwala sa "true friendship"?

--: oo nga, siguro akala mo, true friends kayo.. o maaari ngang true friends kayo, sabihin na natin..pero... gets... kaibigan ba ang matatawag mo kung bigay ka lang ng bigay at wala siyang binabalik?

++:e di ba mabuti yung pagbibigay ng walang kapalit?

--:tse.. naaalala mo ba nung bata pa kayo, hinanapan mo siya ng napakagandang regalo for xmas.. sabi nya reregaluhan ka niya pag january na.. pero ano nangyari?rinegaluhan niya yung mga TANGINA niyang mga kaibigan na iiwanan din pala siya...

++: hindi ka rin naman nagbigay ng regalo ngayon ah...

--: at nung isang taon, ayus din yung regalo mo sa kanya.. pero look what happened... ni nga gift wrapper, wala siyang binigay eh..

++: kaya nga hindi ka nagregalo ngayon diba?

--: LECHE... tapos ngayon... hindi, simulan natin nung ilang buwan.. ang bait-bait-bait-bait-bait-bait mo sakanya, halos magutom ka na (medyo..) para lang sakanya... siya ba may nabigay?

++: sumasaya ka pag kasama mo siya.. true happiness cannot be bought..

--: ang BABAW mo naman.. makasama mo lang siya, masaya ka na? dahil ba dun sa nakaraan? hanggang ngayon parin ba, buhay pa yon?

++: patay na yun, at hindi mo na bubuhayin, diba?

--: pinagkagastusan mo siya ng halos limang daang piso.. para saan?

++: napasaya mo naman siya..

--: gumising ka nga! PUTA... matagal mo nang iniisip na baka GINUGULANGAN KA LANG NIYA... at ang lagi mong dahilan ay..

++: wala lang talaga siyang mabayad,,, medyo naghihhirap kasi..

--: NAGHIHIRAP MY ASS...

++:try mo kaya yan sabihin sakanya..tiyak magtatago ka nanaman ng higit sa isang linggo, tas sasabihin mo nanaman, "Nako, hindi ko na yata kaya magpakita sa kanya..."

--: hey, kung di dahil sa nangyaring yon ay hindi mo maipagtatanto na ganyan na pala ang nangyayari sa inyo...

++:eh bakit sa ibang tao, ganyan ka rin naman ah..

--:....

++:ano,may masasabi ka pa ba..?

--:tss..

++:kung di dahil sakanya,di mo makikilala si >worst nightmare< na tinulungan ka..

--:so indebted ka pa sakanya,ganun..

++: may pinagsamahan kayo, isipin mo naman o..

--: may pinagsamahan kayo, at isipin mo kung ANONG NAGAWA niya sayo.. sige nga..

++:meron yan..

--:ano?

++:hindi mo lang maalala..

--:hindi mo maalala dahil WALA...

++: masaya ka kapag masaya un...

++:....

--: sus, ano to, sine? gasgas na yan, babe...

++: may tinutulungan ka sa kanya...

--: hndi worth it..

--: ayan nanaman... magsisimula ka nanaman sa pA ym-ym mo... naaalala mo ba ung "YM GONE WRONG" mo nung isang taon?

++:naaalala mo yun, parang kahapon...

++:tama na...it's winning over you again...

--:para kayong isang eksena sa "Close to You..."

John Lloyd: Yun nga ang masakit eh... hindi kita matiis...

Bea: Hindi mo ako matiiis kasi mahal mo ko...

2006-02-07T18:28:00.000+08:00

You scored as Bomb. Your death will be by bombing. You will probably be an innocent bystander, not doing anything wrong and not a person who was targeted at, just in the wrong place at the wrong time.

Bomb

93%

Posion

87%

Eaten

80%

Disappear

80%

Stabbed

80%

Gunshot

73%

Disease

60%

Suffocated

53%

Suicide

47%

Cut Throat

33%

Drowning

33%

Natural Causes

33%

Accident

33%

How Will You Die??
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You scored as Normal. NORMAL... YOU HAVE NOTHING TO WORRY ABOUT... You sound cool AIM me kaylablah1

Normal

80%

Bitch

70%

Prep

40%

Slut

20%

Are you a bitch, slut, prep or normal?
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You scored as Everything!. Go You

Everything!

95%

Drum Major

75%

Tuba

75%

Clairnet

65%

Clarinet

60%

Trumpet

60%

DrUmLIne

55%

flute

50%

NONE!

45%

you should be a in garge band..not a school band

35%

trombone

35%

>> Which Band Intrument Should you Play?? <<
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2006-02-06T19:54:00.000+08:00

monday ngaun.
bukas ay tuesday uli.
pakiramdam ko ang bilis-bilis-bilis-bilis ng ikot ng mundo..
ewan ko... para kasing kahapon lang ay june...tas ngaun pebrero na..
gets...
ang bilis...
baka hindi na ako makasabay...
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MOVING ON..

once upon a time ay may bandang nagngangalang Rivermaya. Noong mga dekada '90 pa sila lumabas. medyo marami pa sila nun kumpara kila Rico Blanco ngaun. Tawagin natin ang bandang ito na RM1.
hindi ko pa masyadong binibigyang- pansin ang bandang ito, pero nung ako'y tumungtong sa ikalawang taon ng mataas na paaralan ay may hiniram akong "plaka" mula sa aking kaklase.. "Himig ng Dekada '90 : Rivermaya".
Yun yung mga kantang plinuma at unang inawit nina Bamboo Manalac bago humalili si Rico Blanco.
ang mga kantang ito ng RM1 ay may mga linya na sadyang maganda..

halimbawa..

Himala..
>Kasalanan bang…
Humingi ako sa langit ng
Isang himala…

>Kani-kanina lang..
pagkalambing-lambing ng 'yong mga matang
hayop kung tumingin..

>Kumapit ka kaya
sa akin ng ikaw ay..
maitangay sa kalayaan ng ligaya

>hari ng dedmahan at..
teleponong apat na magdamag
nang di umiimik..

>...tuloy ang bida
sa isipan ko'y ikaw..
sa umaga't sa gabi sa..
bawat minutong lumilipas..
hinahanap-hanap kita..

>the world could die..
and everything may lie
still you shan't cry..

aun, at iba pa. sa kasamaang palad (at sa tsimis na hindi ko pa nasasaliksik kung ito'y tama, kaya ako'y patawarin niyo kung mali) ay nalulong ang bokalista ng RM1, kaya naman kumalas ito. Hindi ko rin alam kung bakit kumalas ang iba apng miyembro ng RM1 at ang mga natira nalang ay sina Rico, Japs at etc...
Noong 2003, bumuo si Bamboo Manalac ng banda na tinawag rin niyang Bamboo, kasama sina Ira Cruz at etc..
Naglabas sila ng mga kantang katulad ng Noypi, Mr. Clay at Masaya.
At ayun, sumikat na uli sila.
Ngayon ay mayroon uli silang bagong lathalang musika, na pinamagatang Light, Peace, Love.
Kasama rito ang mga kantang tulad ng Hallelujiah, F.U at ang pinakahuli nilang inilabas na Much has been Said.
Samantala naman, ang kasalukuyang Rivermaya na ngayo'y si Blanco na ang pumalit na bokalista ay tumatamo ng mga papuri, gaya rin ng Bamboo.
Ngayo'y nagtataka siguro kayo kung bakit ako nagsusulat ng isang 'talambuhay' tungkol sa dalawang bandang ito.
yun ay dahil...

TUTUGTOG SILA SA AA. HAHAHA!!!

yup, legacy concert ng 4th year batch ngayon, kasama nilang tutugtog ang Hale (kung saan naron ang aking dating nobyo) at makakating Higad (that's itchyworms for you, ghayz..). sa March 4 ito, mga 6pm hanggang 12mn ata.. at alam niyo ba...

BUONG HAPON AKONG KINUKULIT KUNG KANINO AKO BIBILI NG TIKETA.
HARHAR.
tsss....
pano ba yan, eh siyam (9) ang nagaalok sa akin ng tiketa. isang tao lang naman ako. kanino ako bibili?
har....
ayaw nga nila akong bigyan ng tawad eh... lechers...

kaya, ayan...
bahala na..
basta gusto kong makita at marinig ang tinig ng henerasyon ko.
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Ipahayag ang inyong samu't saring mga hinaing sa aking "TAGBOARD".

PS (pahabol-sulat): kung nais ninyong bumili ng tiketa, maaari ko kayong ilakad.sabihin niyo lang sa akin.

PSS (pahabol-sulat-sulat): masyado akong MAKABAYN ngayon... matagal pa ang Linngo ng Wika, Ineng!!

2006-02-03T20:22:00.000+08:00

got my card today.
wow...sumabit pa ang algeb ko..
and to think na rinegaluhan ko pa si ms. p...har...
anyway,andaming bumaba sa algebra!as in!
naiyak pnga ung kklase ko eh... pano nman ksi, yang ut1 na yan, sobrang daming nag-fail (yours truly included).. tapos sobrang medjo lang nakakalito...
haaay....
nung i computed my algeb tets, 78 ang lumaabs..alam ko tataas a un kasi ok nman ang mga quizzes at h.ws ko...pero, hwaw!! isang point lang ang itinaas... harrr....
bakeet?!?!?!?
nagiging *bobo* nnga ba ako?
pati ibang subjects ko, bumaba rin eh...
har..
stat lang tumaas...
un lang actually ang line of 9 ko..
so you guys can imagine how pathetic i am..
>sigh<
asar naman o..
pramis...
mag-aaral na ko..
last quarter na to..
medyo nag-lax kasi ako nung 3rd quarter.. kaya aun..

mental note:lumayo sa mga distractive things (e.g mga isda)

kaya ngau.. radicals... hmpf... cge lang... aaralin kita!har!
kaya ko nga to nung 1st year..ngaun pa kaya...
harr...
go bennette!
may pangarap akong maging atenista ah!
un na siguro ang goal ko in my teenage life..haha!!
dapat 3 years from now, you will find me along one of the benches in ADMU's corridors, sitting with my *current* bf and eating yellowcab pizza...haha!!

+++MOVING ON+++
nagpunta kami sa bahay ni gayle kanina..
wow, ang cozy ng bahay nila!ang cute kaya!ehehe...
de-aircon pa, tas may cable sila tas ung comp. nila na may internet ay Win. XP... haha.. gusto ko rin ng ganun!
anyway, tapos namin mag- ip (doms, erika a. isay & gayle) hinatid nila ako sa big r para mag-commute pauwi.. i told you i live in a JUNGLE...
tas nung asa big r ako, nagkita pa kami nila akiko, kaygee at glorianne tas nakita pa namin si carissa alamzan at si ms. de la paz na may kasama (husband?).
harhar.
tumuloy ang mga kakalase ko sa soiree/party sa filinvest. ka-soiree nila ngaun ung 2-h (mga mayayaman at gwapo daw..).. i wish nakapunta ako, kaso lang a) wala akong transpo at b) di ako pwedeng mag-commute sa gabi...

kelan ko pa kaya matitikman ang kalayaan?
ehehe...
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TAG BOARD.

ps: do you guys know kung opano mag-ayos ng archive? ung may URL pa kasi ung asa template ko eh...help the html-adobe imbecile!!

kaya naman... wag mo na kong tignan ng ganyan..

2006-02-01T20:08:00.000+08:00

waw.. i hust typer this thing 5 minutes ago but unfortunately, this hell of a virus-infested computer suddenly closed my blogger window. DARN!!

REWIND:::::

nagpalit kami ng upuan.
katabi ko si max at tricia (by c.n pa kami ah!haha!).
binu-bully parin ako.haha!
5/15 ako sa a.p...
pinag-report ako sa english.
nanood kami ng nora aunoer chuva...
inaasar ako nung lunch na crush ko raw ung friend kong si -__-- dahil lang nakasalubong namin siya at kinausap ko.damn!
hndi naman dahil napanaginipan ko (twice pa, LECHE!) at kinakaibigan ko ung tao ay crush ko na!Kaso lang buong araw ay PINAGPIPILITAN SAKIN na crush ko un!like, yaaaaak!! andami nang mga straight at hndi masyadong straight sa school ang nagkakacrush dun eh!!sarili ko ngang *mga* kklase at kaibigan.. harr....
anyway, wala na pala ung *ano* ko kay fish.
sorry nalang siya.
wag nila akong titignan ng ganun! leche!
yung tingin na "oo,alam ko obsessed/crush mo ko... haha!am i not soooo great that i'm sikat nanga, i'm a varsity player na and may mga nagkaka-gusto pala skain!haha!!" LECHE!!
hndi dahil 3 months tumagal un ah...
fyi, ang reason ko lang naman kaya kita nagustuhan ay dahil muka kang mabait!leche!kaya wag kang titingin-tingin sakin na parang presidente ako ng fans club mo!leche! taken na ko ni UST'e!hahahaha!!!(speaking of : i miss u na darling..yak!feleng!)
anyway, so,wala na si fish, at ayoko dun kay *friend* kaya ako'y straight na...haha!!
NO WORRIES WHATSOEVER, except for my damn subjects...hahaha!!!
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TAG, people...kahit ikaw pa si fish...well, i doubt it...

2006-01-31T20:33:00.000+08:00

buh-bye, seatmates!!!

LIPATAN NA NG UPUAN!!

LECHE!!

PERO DUN RIN AKO!!

ang naiba lang ay ang katabi ko.
har,,,

SOME THINGS I LEARNED FROM MY SEATMATES:

1)it isn't bad to eat in class..especially if you didn't eat recess/breakfast/lunch, as long as you won't get caught.

2)eye lash curler adds a bit pretty-ness to your lashes... thanks for teaching me how to use one!

3) try NOT TO SHED A TEAR when putting on an eyeliner.

4)kahit sino pa ang crush mo, patuloy ka paring susuportahan (KAHIT MALI DAW!) at aasarin....

5)1st impressions DON'T ALWAYS LAST. hindi lahat ng inaakala mong mataray ay mataray.

6)madami kang makikilalang mga 'mystery guys' na unknowingly crush na paal nila... malalaman mo pati lovelife nila!

7)kelangan ko na mag-pluck ng kilay.

8)for good friend's sake, check ka nalang ng check sa algeb kahit di mo sure kung un ung sagot. sabihin mo nalang, "hindi ko kasi narinig ung sabi nya...ang hina ng boses!!"

9)ngayon ko lang na-discover na marami ka palang kapareahas.

10) may titingin at tatawa kahit di mo napapansin na nakangiti ka mag-breast stroke at free style.

haha!
para sa aking mga seatmates at medyo seatmates : iya,teresa, evaline, pupu, trikya, ikit.....

KUDOS TO YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!!MARAMING SALAMAT!!!!:D
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have something to say? sigaw mo sa tagboard ko!!!

2006-01-30T20:47:00.000+08:00

NEW LAYOUT!!!!!!

nagkanda- leche leche kasi ung rainbow layout ko, tas wala pang archives..at least ito meron!hahaha!
ang saya ko, at least medyo ok n problem ko k _-__!haha!
pero c anu naman...haha!!
nag-CEM kami kanina!
har...
kakahilo ung algeb!
leche...
aun na...
haha!
cge,gotta run!:D
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>Aahem,ahem<
TAGBOARD....

2006-01-22T19:05:00.000+08:00

got this from dizon who got it from mica who got it from god knows where/who..

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Benn!

The eye of an ostrich is bigger than benn.
Humans have 46 chromosomes, peas have 14, and benn has 7.
If you keep a goldfish in a dark room, it will eventually turn into benn.
The blood of mammals is red, the blood of insects is yellow, and the blood of benn is blue.
The air around benn is superheated to about five times the temperature of the sun!
Benn has four noses.
If the Sun were the size of a beach ball then Jupiter would be the size of a golf ball and benn would be as small as a pea.
Ninety-six percent of all candles sold are purchased by benn.
Japan provides over thirty percent of the world's benn supply!
Benn cannot swim.

so... here's the lowdown...
1.really?ang liit ko naman... 5'5 ata ako ah!
2.nako.. nakalimutan ko na ung chromosome chuvas na yan eh..
3.goldfish evolution =me..haha!
4.my blood is blue 'coz i come from a royal lineage..ha!
5.really?wow, im so HOT...
6. really?why can i only see ONE..?
7.ano ba!sinabi nang 5'5 ako eh!
8.grabe.. may awa pa naman samin ang MERALCO..
9.haha.. made in japan na pala ako.. akala ko france eh..
10. yeah, sorta.. to hell with BREAST STROKES//

2006-01-22T18:15:00.000+08:00

seems like im going to 2 places in a day.
last friday, i went to akiko's house for her party after school.
and can you please stop pissing me off.

yesterday,i was in school, preparing for the asian fest booth and kinda rehearsing.
then we went to Euro Star Carnival, kung saan nakita ko ang pinaka astig at nakakahilong rides sa buong buhay ko. grabe, wala ako ma- say! nakakahilo!
pero daming fafa foreigners!hehe... ang sama mo talaga, bennette...
tapos, laaht ata ng mga class B-A+ makikita mo dun.. mga tagilid, mga bata, mga matatanda..etc,.
may babae panga dun na sobra kung makasuot ng blose!as in, my ghuulay, the cleavage, my dear! parang lalabas na ung lady lumps mo ah...
masaya ang ferris wheel, sobra!may masasabi pa kaya ako?
ang ganda ng city lights pag tinatanaw mula sa itaas, parang.. basta!maganda!hehe...
tapos, aun. napagod ako kalalakad. muntik panga kaming mag- Tiendesitas eh, kung di lang ganun ka- late..

kaninang umaga, nagpunta kami ng fam ko sa church, tas nag- drama ang aking magaling na pinsan kung bakit ayaw nyang sumama, tapos un, naiyak narin ako dahil mukang di na ko makakabili ng dgcam.
pero, hehe..thanks to my tita, nakapunta ako ng sta. lu at nabili ang canon powershot na matagal- tagal ko nang inaantay na bilhin..
at last!
di nako magtitipid!
pero wala na kong allowance for this week!!
hehe...
aun nman,,,,,,,,

anyway, so, un lang.
naiinis ako ngayong afternoon eh..
bka pms lang..
haaaay....
ayoko pang pumasok...
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ps: nakausap ko na ung isda.dammit.

TAGBOARD LIVES.

2006-01-22T17:56:00.000+08:00

Greed:	High
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	High
Sloth:	High
Envy:	Very High
Lust:	Medium
Pride:	High

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2006-01-19T19:41:00.000+08:00

kanina, nag- tryk ako papunta kila misha para tulungan sila ni raissa na mag-prep up for the asian fest.
i dunno if they're sure of me getting the part as the father, but whatever's fine with me.hehe..
anyway, we didn't do much in misha's except watch t.v (the Borbons are among the lucky households gifted with cable television!halellujiah!!), piss mica off in Y!M, buy soda and have "heart- to- heart" talks with Raissa by the gate and talk about school gossip.

God, the culture of our school!!
so many tagilid! (bennette, you HYPOCRITE.)
No offense. hehe.

anyway, i am going to buy my FIRST digital camera, as i stated in earlier posts, this weekend.
ha!the hell, im so excited!

GET THE HANG OF THIS:

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid Disorder:	Moderate
Schizoid Disorder:	Moderate
Schizotypal Disorder:	Moderate
Antisocial Disorder:	Moderate
Borderline Disorder:	Low
Histrionic Disorder:	High
Narcissistic Disorder:	Moderate
Avoidant Disorder:	High
Dependent Disorder:	Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:	High
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! -- -- Personality Disorders --

HAHA..

2006-01-19T19:15:00.000+08:00

IAMSOOOOHAPPYMYEXAMSAREDONE.

as in DONE.

NADA.

WALA NA.

ADIEU THIRD QUARTER.

no more sleeping around 3 am (or was it 4..?) for us, dears.
because the freaking Bio, head aching Asian History, formula- infested Statistics, comprehensive English, so-so Filipino and most of all, terror Algebra.
new quarter, new start.
sadly, THIS IS THE LAST STRETCH for us... before we part ways for summer vacation.
I'd surely miss my classmates & my friends.
they'd go out of this *dead* country or rather this boring city and enjoy themselves while I would hail an FX taxi again every other day to go to my Summer Review classes in Katipunan.
>shrug< at least i could guy- hunt in Tia Maria's again.
(and maybe have another mistaken identity story..)

But wait, I am jumping 2 months ahead!
I still have some commitments and stuff to do.
Here is my schedule until the end of ths s.y:
(note: this is tentative.)

Jan. 20 (Fri)
-CEM test
-Soiree
-Legacy: Gr. 7 (still unsure kung pupunta)

Jan 21 (Sat)
- Prepping up for the Asian Fest
[ihavetogotoschoolonaweekend!!]

Jan 23-27
-Asian Fest

Feb 14
-Valentine's day/Teacher's Day!

Feb 23-24
-Highly- anticipated Bio trip

Mar. 1-2
-Section Reco
[andayahulikami!blameiton"mrs.fionashrek"]

Mar. 22-24
-4th qt

So far un palang ang mga highlights..
di pa kasama ung mga UT1 and other s***..
to be inserted na siguro sa schedule ko.

anyway, malayo pa ang vacation at sina-savor ko muna ung maliligayang araw ko bilang isang sophie.
*wenx*
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TAGBOARD LIVES!!!!!!!!!

2006-01-18T20:35:00.000+08:00

haha!!
see something new around here?

ive gotta NEW LAYOUT!!

haha!!
got it from blogskins.com....

ang cute no?
hndi nman ako gnon ka-found sa mga rainbows..

pero ang cute talaga ng skin,kaya eto muna ang temporary skin ng blog ko!

*MOVING ON*
Tomorrow is the last day of exams (Eng-Bio).
Just studied Bio (around 2 hrs!hehe!) and im done with english na.. haha!!
and im going to the soiree on friday!
haha!
wag na ung cueshe-cueshe na yan!!
haha!
im sucha meanie!
anjologs talaga ng cueshe!
may magagawa ba ako?
haha.. cge, aun na un...
*NOTE*
no fishes today...haha...
damn you, you special-mentioned lamang-dagat!!
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people.. my TAGBOARD's here...

2006-01-17T20:05:00.000+08:00

new face song na narinig ko kgbi sa radyo...

Darna (narda)
Kamikazee

Tila ibon kung lumipad, sumabay sa hangin akoy
Napatingin
Sa dalagang nababalot ng hiwaga.
Mapapansin kaya sa dame ng yong gingawa
Kung kaagaw ko ang lahat may pag asa bang makilala ka

Awit na nananawagan, baka sakaling napakikinggan,
Pag ibig na palaisipan sa kanta na lang idaraan
Nag aabang sa langit, sa mga ulap sumisilip
Sa likod ng mga tala,kahit sulyap lang darna

Ang swerte nga nman ni ding, lagi ka nyang kapiling
Kung ako sa kanya niligawan na kita
Mapapansin kaya sa dame ng yong gingawa
Kung kaagaw ko ang lahat may pag asa bang makilala ka

Awit na nananawagan,baka sakaling napakikinggan,
Pag ibig na palaisipan sa kanta na lang idadaan
Nag aabang sa langit, sa mga ulap sumisilip
Sa likod ng mga tala,kahit sulyap lang darna

Tumalon kaya ako sa bangin,para lang iyong sagipin
Ito ang tanging paraan para mayakap ka
Darating kayasa dame ng ginagawa
Kung kaagaw ko sila paano na kaya?

Awit na nananawagan,baka sakaling napakikinggan,
Pag ibig na palaisipan sa kanta na lang idadaan
Nag aabang sa langit, sa mga ulap sumisilip
Sa likod ng mga tala,kahit sulyap lang darna

Nag aabang sa langit, sa mga ulap sumisilip
Sa likod ng mga tala,kahit sulyap lang darna

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TAGBOARD,PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-01-17T15:19:00.000+08:00

DAAAAAAAAAAAAMN!!!!!!
ICANTSEEMTOMAKEAFREAKINGLYGOODREVIWER!!!!!!!!!
WHY?!!!!!!!!!

i just feel so happy for going through that algebra exam which, i thought of, was quite easy... (tas biglang 68 o...haha.wala namang ganyanan..)
i mean, i don't know why everyone's fussing all over those word problems, but heck, those were the EASIEST.
except for the work problem, which i messed up.
and to think i was panicking last night.
haha!
i studied from 7-11pm, so I deserve some good results!
haha!

tomorrow's the statistics and asian history tests..
i already studied for A.P, and i don't know if I retained all those stuff in my head.
ithinknot.

there's still stat to study, and i cannot afford to fail this, since i already got a high grade in my MQT, and this will help my overall Math grade in the card.
(oh damn, they're playing Madona's "Like a Virgin" again..)

I'm quite nervous for A.P, since i can't retain it talaga in my utak...harhar!!

**MOVING ON**
the fish is back.
hahaha! (uy, special mention pa sya o!!)
i saw IT kanina when we were about to leave.
haha..
i'm quite happy i saw the fish.
special mention ka pa sa blog ko, lang ya ka...
di na dpat kita...
aun...
bsta...
kung d lang dahil dun sa.....
hindi na dpat....

anlabo!hehe!!

**MOVING ON**
I wanna attend our soiree/party this friday!
problem?
TRANSPORTATION.
why can't 15 year-olds get a license?
I mean, haller!
I promise I won't drink and drive and make out at the back seat of my BMW...
hello!
It's for socializing!
when no one voluntarily wants to fetch/ bring you to a party/ soiree/"study group" event.
har!
i want the convertible BMW!!
or better..

IWANNAGOTOTHESOIREE!!!!!

hndi pwedeng si r----- lang ang crush ko!!!!!
haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar!!!!!!!!!

2006-01-15T15:13:00.000+08:00

thisfreakingwriterstillcantstudy.

for crying out loud, WHO CAN STUDY 20 PAGES OF UNDISCUSSED TOPICS FOR THE QT?!?!(and those LPs still don't count, my dears.)

like a good friend of mine said when we were reviewing about the Yuan Dynasty last quarter:

WHY DO WE HAVE TO STUDY A BUNCH OF DEAD PEOPLE?!??!?!??!?!

i mean, haller?
there is sucha sentence stamped on people's gravestones which says "REST IN PEACE".
So why are we not letting these 'dead' Japanese people rest in peace?
(there were no gravestones then?)
I used to enjoy AP back in gradeschool.. as in never got test, project and quiz grades below 90.
But when I entered HighSchool, damn you, Kamakura period.
They all have these bunch of names in foreign languages.
I mean, hindi ba pwedeng i-translate un sa English?
It would be probably better to study World History next year, at least their names will be in english, like Alexander or John or William.. haha!
so here i am, studying AP since last night.
i plan on skipping the pages, since ms.molave said that the coverage is just the Jap. stuff in the l.p and some of those religions. blah.

I am happy with my Catholic faith right now, thankyouverymuch, and i have no plans to be converted...

SO WHY BOTHER?!?!??!??!

I haven't even started on my english review, considering that there's a whole novel to be encountered.
and lalu na ung algeb....
Those radicals are like cake but
I HAVE TO DEAL WITH THOSE F***** RATIONAL EXPRESSION AND ASS-KICKING WORK PROBLEMS AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HELLO!ARE YOU NOT HAPPY THAT I ALREADY GOT A 68 IN MY UT1 AND I AM STRIVING TO MEND MY BROKEN EGO DUE TO THAT LOSS?!??!?!

adn then i have to study bio, which, thankfully, i have nothing to say since it's just kinda easy EXCEPT FOR THE A-B-C-D-BOTH-A-AND-B-ARE-TRUE-SHIT which is SO CONFUSING!!!!!haaaaaarrrrr!!!!(well,maybe i do have somehting to say..)

i finished studying CLE, which, again, i'll say is MAKING ME FEEL THAT THE COMMANDMETS ARE MAKING MY LIFE HARDER. i mean, i CAN follow it and i KNOW them but DO THEY REALLY HAVE TO BE THAT SPECIFIED?!??!?!?!??!?!
not to mention that pur teacher keeps going back to the homosexual topic.. i mean, WE ARE ALREADY AWARE AND IF CLE CLASSES WEREN'T THAT SPECIFIED, I KNOW WE WOULD PASS EVERY QUIZ GIVEN AFTER EVERY REPORT!!!!!!!!!!
im not that holy--i am quite spiritual,and there is a difference. not that im complaining with all of those commandments, but isn't ti that those are made for men and not men for the commandments...?sorry, G.

and then there's our HEALTH TEST tomorrow, and i haven't started reviewing yet. i think im changing my plans of becoming a doctor since ALL THOSE CRAP CAN'T FIT IN MY HEAD.argh!!!!

statistics would be just quick, since i think that's the only subject with calculating that i'm good at, so just bumming around...

PINOY!!!!!!!HAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I HAVE NOTHING TO SAY EXCEPT THAT I THOUGHT I ALREADY LEFT MAHAYANA AND THERAVADDA BUDDHISM IN AP SO WHY IS IT STILL IN MY FILIPINO CLASSES?!?!??!?!WHY!?!?!?!?!?!?

all these reviewing beats the shit outta me..

see, ima getting all distressed. har.

DAMN YOU, CHAPTER 8 OF MY AP BOOK!!!!
I SWEAR IM GONNA BURN YOU AT THE END OF THE SCHOOL YEAR!!!!!
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2006-01-14T16:11:00.000+08:00

eto ung song na sinasabi ng kakalase (at pinsan..haha!joke lang maxine!) ko. dapat daw ito kanta ko sa pinsan nya.. hehe!

Lagi Mo Na Lang Ako Dinededma
Rocksteddy

Mahal kita pero di mo lang alam
Hindi mo alam kasi hindi mo naman ako tinitignan
Ayaw mo naman itanong sakin kasi baka nga naman hindi naman ikaw
At hindi ko rin naman sayo sasabihin kasi ayoko pa sa ngayon na manligaw

Mahal kita pero hindi nga lang halata
Hindi halata kasi wala naman akong ginagawa
Hindi ako kumikibo hindi ako nagsasalita wala

Pero hindi ako torpe
Hindi ko lang talaga masabi sayo ng harapan
Mahal kita pero dehins mo pa rin ramdam
Hindi mo ko titignan di rin kita titgnan
Lagi mo lang akong pakikiramdaman lagi rin kitang pakikiramdaman
At araw araw tayong magdededmahan
Hanggang sa tayo ay magkabistuhan

Pero ngayong malapit nang matapos ang kanta ko
Nais kong magkaalaman na
Nais kong ako na rin ang magsabi sayo ng harapan
Kasi alam kong doon din naman ang tuloy nyan
At dalawa din lang naman ang posibleng sagot dyan oo o hindi

Kaya eto na sasabihin ko na para matapos na
At hindi na magka-tsismisan pa
Sasabihin ko na para wala nang problema
At para hindi na rin kayong lahat nabibitin pa

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2006-01-14T15:57:00.000+08:00

IHAVENUFFMONEYTOBUYADIGICAM!!!!

haha!

i went digicam- scouting today, since we were in Shangrila for my lola's eye check up in the eye center and also to get my ipod nano fixed. i went through some electrical shops and got some brochures.
uunfortunately, the much- coveted ixus izoom is beyond my budget (around 24 000php) and if i continue earning for it, i might not have an allowance until the next school year.
i opted for those low- priced Casios, but they look, well, *cheap* so i tried looking for kodak ones. but they are, well, looking *cheap*.

thank god for the Canon a410 powershot, which is still quite reachable for me, since it just costs a whopping 11 500php. haha!!

it's so basic and so neat- looking that it's ok for me to pass up the izoom. and it's canon, haller!i also go for brands!

kinopy ko ung ibang features, pero di ko ma-copy ung pic!tignan nyo nalang sa tindahan o sa www.canon.com:

Superb Image Quality

• 3.2 megapixel CCD for larger and sharper images

• Powered by DIGIC II Imaging Processor for razor sharp image quality, accelerated processing and life-like color reproduction.

• 3.2x optical zoom

Compact Design in 4 Beautiful Colours

• Features packed and compact

• Available in 4 brilliant and exciting colours to choose from – Champagne, Dark Grey, Blue and Metallic Grey

ok na ba? i plan to get the dark grey or the blue.. pero anything will do, basta meron! what's important for me naman is to take pics, kahit gaano man kalaki ang megapixels nyan (of course, the more the better). pero ok narin... thanks to my allowance- shortening (from 50php to 20php a day) and my dad's unaware funding (i asked more allowance for him with different reasons.. hehe.. what a nice daughter), I am now gonna buy (actually next week pa after exams) that cam.. haha!!
and no one's gonna stop me!

then, i'll launch my career as a professional stolen- picture photographer.. haha!

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2006-01-13T19:51:00.000+08:00

if i just breathe
let it fill the space between
i know everything is all right..
-Breathe, Michelle Branch

24 hours ago, i was cointing down the moments 'til my last breath (aka Algebra test).

and now...

IMALIVE!!!!!

got it?
good.

and now, i am confident to say that i, benedictine armovit roaring of yr II sec 4, WOULD PASS ALGEB FAIR AND SQUARE, WITH NO INSPIRATIONS OR TRICKERY WHATSOEVER.

haha!!
[tapos pagbigay ng results biglang 68... DIE!!]

but well, that's just me hoping for the best.
I mean, who wants to fail?
well, i did already, and i never want to have that feeling of regret.
Whenever i fail a test, I always look back to those hours before I took it.
then i think back...
what if i didn't eat that same old breadstick for lunch?
would i have passed?
what if i stopped bugging my seatmate 2 subjects before?
would that change the result?
If ever i saw some other *things* before the test, would i get a higher score or will i fail the more?
last night, i listened to my ipod while reviewing for algeb to keep me awake.
if i did'nt would that affect my grade standing?

i know that at some point of our lives, we've made mistakes.
mistakes we want to eradicate.
there are instances when i wanted to turn back the time to go back to a past mistake. to take back the words i wish haven't said so as not to add more gas to the fire.
but i can't.
no one can't.
so we just have to go on living.
though we wish to take back a few more minutes to repeat that moment when someone you really like talked to you. or the times wherein you and your friends were laughing, like we were doing a while ago during club time. or moment that you should've done more for someone than what you did.
i can't repeat all those.
but i wish i could.
but i know everything's gonna be all right.
i wanted those things to be, so i shouldn't regret it.
all i can do is move on and live.
and that's what i'm doing. xp
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2006-01-12T17:57:00.000+08:00

tomorrow is

FRIDAY THE 13th.

The 1st friday the 13th of the year.

and we'll have our computer quiz tomorrow.

and I don't want to say this, but we'll be having our ALGEBRA UT2 tomorrow.

I absolutely CANNOT afford to fail this or my 3rd quarter grade will suffer,and i'll have to work extra hard to get a passing grade for my QT.

So i came up with a list of 13 confession (in lieu to the Friday the 13th ek-ek) before I -ulk- meet my calculative doom.

LAST FEW WORDS BEFORE MY UTTER DEMISE:
(or The Last Confessions of an Alge-phobic girl)

confession # 1:
When our A.K teacher asked me and my classmate to get some papers from the A.K office, we snuck out a pack of Sour Cream Frito Lays lying on one of the tables there. What can I say? we WERE hungry.

confession #2
I don't think that some of my batchmates are really that pretty, though i often say that they are.

confession #3
I was the one who added ----- in my YM, and not teh other way around, contrary to what I said to --.

confession #4
The only reason why I added -_-_-_ and -__- in my YM is because I like them.

confession #5
I am REALLY tictine_xero, and I do not study in MC but in a.A, contrary to what I said to -__-

confession #6
I am not SC's guitarist's cousin..

confession # 7
I was lying in confessio # 6. I am, and he is.

confessio #8
I eat chocolates, though I tell some people that I don't.

confession #9
I neever saw the movies Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon, Monster's Inc. (not until 2 years ago), War of the Worlds and some others, though I tell some people that I did.

confession #10
I really like r-----!!(asifhe'sreadingdishaller....)

confession #11
I have never been to Boracay... (duh..everyone knows it)

confession #12
I don't know how to dribble while running...meesoolaaame!!!

confession #13
my crush-ness for -__-_ is starting to dwindle.. haha!!!but well.. I still do like -__-_!!!
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got anything to say?
well, do I live to see the result of my exam?

I don't know...
do you?
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2006-01-09T20:13:00.000+08:00

THISFRAKINGWRITERISSOECSTATIC.

DAMMIT!!!

Who says that the quote
"opportunity knocks once"
is true?
well, partly.
but opportunity can knock TWICE, and sometimes, it knocks on the BACK DOOR.

very seldom that you hear it as you drown yourself in misery and regret.
take my example.

i've been down this afternoon because of an 'incident' which left my already deranged mind in a clutter, leaving me unfocused on my Statistics class.
i've shed some tears this afternoon partly because of this 'incident' and partly because of a certain phone call that somebody made for me.
by the time i was in my bus, my eyes were already watery and my face already red because of all the heat and the 'incidentS'.

i asked my busmate if she received my palanca for her.

and well....

the next thing she said changed my mood quite.
(to my classmates, you know this na..hehe...).

and this evening, I smiled.
another phone call.
but this one different from the other.
i feel like i've been given a new breath of life, after hopelessly gasping for air in the darkness, another opportunity to change those things that i've done for today and during last weekend (or at least alter a bit of the future outcomes).

just like my friend said.
there's no need to panic.
i'm still living.

to hell with those ratioanls and quartiles.

i'll live 'til the BIO TRIP.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

2006-01-09T19:56:00.000+08:00

REALITY'S BACK.

and it hit me hard on the face.

I face the chilly wind despite the sun shining above me as I trudge back to school.

Algebra welcomed me with open arms.

And I still don't give a damn if I am still currently disturbed by someone.

I mean some people.

It was one of the happiest days of my life last week when some people dropped by at our house for the New Year celebrations.

and yes, he was there.

all of a sudden, i've cancelled my engagement.

we only see each other once a year.
and that's the reason why i miss him.
i've known him for quite some time, and well, i've grown fond of him during these last 2 years.
it's not romantic, if you think about it.
just a regular girl liking some college guy who only thinks she's his little sister.
they'd talk, nothing quite serious nor super personal as old friends do.
but when the talk, she feels like she'd want to have some more of those.
he'd tell her that he just broke up, and she'd say that she's still searching, and they laugh.
it was one of the best ways to cap her new year.
and i'm sure that after 2 days, he'd forget about her.
i don't want this to be all mushy and romantic.
i want to be closer.
i want more of those casual chit-chats which i longingly wait since it only happens once a year.

if only.

well,i want that to happen.

and i WILL.

2006-01-09T19:48:00.000+08:00

i'm BACK

2006-01-07T18:39:00.000+08:00

i am now attending regular classes.
as swiftly as it came, reality returned so swiftly last thursday, Jan. 5.

i can't believe that just almost a week ago, i was swept away by someone who doesn't even know i'm so interested in him.

i wouldn't tell that meeting him again was like a dream.
no, it was far from being perfect.

meeting the person i'm so into now last week wasn't that fairytale-ish as it was:

omit all those romantic music in the background.
I got all those children screaming around.

Scratch the candle-lit dinner.
I had barbecue,spaghetti and popcorn.

Don't even bother asking if we were all clad in our best.
Me in my "best" Ralph Lauren shorts and Nike tee.
He in his jeans and shirt.

And did we ever have those mushy, kilig moments?
Sorry to burst my bubble, but we only had a very casual chat.

But despite that.......
it was the best way to cap my 2005.

~*~*~*~**~*~**~**~*~**~*~*~**~*~*~*~**~*~*~**~*~*~**~*~**~*~*~*~**~*~*~**~*

Anyway, enough with the daydreaming.

as i said, i'm back to that normal high school girl fussing about her algebra, her lunch money and the upcoming Biology trip.

I'm now in deep water with the "perfects"...aka the roots and the squares and the cubes and so on.

I have to make a handful (is 4 a handful?) of Palancas for my friends before they go to Baguio.

I have an introduction paper to make for our IP draft.

I am still wondering on how to up my social life without getting out of the house.

Champ Lui-Pio's still online....and still not answering my instant message.

Yael Yuson was on a game show a while ago, and he almost won a million pesos.
And I still can't forget the evening that I met him.
yep, he was such a nice guy.
and we had our picture taken (and it still isn't deleted from ym friendster. HA!)

I'm panicking on how to befriend somebody without making a fool out of myself.
I wanna have a good dinner tonight.

See.

I'm back to all these things.

And it means i'm still sane.

The question is....

with my upcoming algebra and biology tests, biology trip fee problems, IP paper, faulty internet connection and the befriend thing......

how long will my sanity stay by my side?

I hope it would never leave me.

snapping back to reality

2006-01-07T18:37:00.000+08:00

pinaasa niya lang ako....(sa ym)

2006-01-07T18:33:00.000+08:00

champ lui-pio's online!!!!!

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

pero xa ay hindi nagreply sa aking im na smiley laang....

haaaaaaaaaaaay.......

ang taray.........

HINDI KO NA SIYA CRUSH!!!!!!!!

buti pa c R-

okay,never mind....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARAH (enriquez)!!!!!

i so like regret not getting to attend..

lintek na dinner at IP na yan!!!!!!!!!!

go to HELL!! (ung IP at dinner ah....)

anyway................

LIGAYA- interpreted

2006-01-04T15:32:00.000+08:00

Ilang awit pa ba ang aawitin, o giliw ko?
>ilan pa nga ba?

Ilang ulit pa ba ang uulitin, o giliw ko?
>sana lang wala na masyado..

tatlong oras na akong nagpapacute sa iyo
di mo man lang napapansin ang bagong t-shirt ko
>hay..paki mo ba naman kung bago tshirt ko...

Ilang isaw pa ba ang kakain, o giliw ko?
>di ako kumakain nun eh..

Ilang tanzan pa ba ang iipunin, o giliw ko?
>mas magaling kang tumagay kesa sakin, im sure..

gagawin ko ang lahat pati ang thesis mo
>puta, wala namang ganyanan!di ko level ang thesis mo!

wag mo lang ipagkait ang hinahanap ko
>na...

Sagutin mo lang ako, aking sinta'y walang humpay, o ligaya
>oo nga...ako na pala manliligaw ngayon...

aasahang iibigin ka, sa tanghali, sa gabi at umaga
>makaaasa ka,.......

Wag ka sanang magtanong at magduda
dahil ang puso ko'y walang pangamba
na tayo'y mabubuhay na tahimika't buong ligaya
>i still belive in ever after with u!!

Ilang ahit pa ba ang aahitin, o giliw ko?
>haha!labo..

Ilang hirit pa ba ang hihiritin, o giliw ko?
>hirit ng ano?ng cel # mo...

di naman ako mangyakis tulad nang iba
>may pagka lang..hehe..

pinapangako ko sa iyo na igagalang ka
>pramis!!may babae bang manyak?!

SAGUTIN MO LANG AKO AKING SINTA'Y WALANG HUMPAY NA LIGAYA!!

note: IT'S not what u think...xp

feliz navidad..

2005-12-24T20:09:00.000+08:00

IAMNOTINACHRISTMASFESTIVEMOODRIGHTNOW.

READ THAT.

earlier this day, i cried thrice... the two with no reason at all.

no one's currently online in my YM..

and here i am, reconnecting my internet connection since it's getting quite choppy..oh holy crap...

i don't feel like it's christmas.. or better yet, i don't feel that happy at all..

possible causes (disclaimer:this is according to my relatives):
a)my parents are away
-nope.i'm used to it anyway..the last 13 years of my life..well,it's quite the same..
b)i still don't have a lovelife
-don't care. i know my stars are gonna get lucky in 2006.haha!!
c)premonition
-what?do i sudenly have the sixth sense?!

anyway..>sigh< we're gonna attend the simbang gabi in a few minutes.. and i only have a few minutes left to type the remainder of this entry, which will be quite short..

in fact, it ends here.

i hope our christmas lunch with my cousins would turn out good tomorrow.

or better yet, i hope the contents of my presents are somewhat "PRENET-able"...

Merry Christmas guys..

Of money, old "friends" and hot nerds

2005-12-23T16:18:00.000+08:00

[i just erased the whole thing i typed here 3 minutes ago. harr!]

yesterday, I went to my aunt's office with my cousins for their annual Christams party.
I was quite sick the day before that, and i wasn't that sure of myself if i can go but anyway...

we left at around 6, my uncle panicking that he's gonna be late for his errand..-blah,blah-

anyway, my aunt treated my cousins & I to DeliFrance for breakfast, me ordering my usual Pizza Baguet (although I got the BBQ Chicken and not my usual Hawaiian flavor, so that's not so usual after all.) and "tall" Iced Tea.

After that yummy breakfast, we went back to the office and-well- my old "friend" was already there (actually we met him with his mom before we went to breakfast) and as usual, i knew that we won't be having a converstaion---again.
Ever since i attended all those family days and Christmas parties at the bank, we've already known each other quite a bit.
But, i don't know.. we're not that civil to each other anymore.
Maybe because I beat him up when we were younger.
Hello!
If that's the reason, then it's a very shallow one then.
I mean, that beating- up happened around 8 years ago, and that wasn't too much-err- beating.. just a few minor kickings..(in my part!)
Ok, it's not because he's good- looking (and he's grown quite-well-good looking during the years..arrgh!) though that is, a plus factor.
I mean, for old time's sake.. can't the guy just do something friendly?!
His mom wants us to be close..
as if that happens...
well, I can make it happen...
but can he?
he'll be graduating from high school this March, and i'm not quite sure if he'd still be going to parties as such.[i'm sure his mom will drag him to it.hehe.]
maybe i'll try to make a move the at the next party.
GOD!I SOUND LIKE I HAVE A CRUSH ON HIM!
[but of course not..hehe!]

moving on...

i've been going to the bank since- well- i can't remember, so people there were already quite fond of me. My aunt would always bring me to those stuff before she had my cousins, so i'm already a familiar face.
and it pays going ther even though you're feeling quite sick the day before, since you earn money.

earn money.

EARN MONEY.

1,300++ php.

Just for showing up.

Not to mention a few chocolates here and there.

haha!!

and you get to see some cute guys.

or rather just A cute guy for me.

The first time i met him, i passed by him in the corridor and he was carrying his guitar with him.
I guess he's the same age as I am or maybe a year younger.
He wore not-so-loose pants and a black shirt with the logo of MTV's Pimp My Ride printed on it.
And he had really round and quite thick black rimmed glasses on that made him look like Harry Potter.
He kept hanging out at the sofa near the entrance with a younger boy..
and whenever i passed by...
well.. he'd glance.
Once, he even smiled. (or was it just me?)
I didn't smile back, giving that taray-kolehiyala impression.
But as I got far...
I couldn't help but grin.
I was so happy.
Here was my 'suppossed plan' in how to meet him:
>If he continued to hang out at the sofa with his guitar, I'd borrow it and befriend him.
>then get his number.

sadly, he did hang out often at the sofa.. without his guitar.
Maybe it's his sense of ownership.
But he went home late with his mom (who was the boss of the other department, as i figured it out).

And i couldn't help but feel sorry for myself for being such a sucker for guys.

vigil aftermath part II

2005-12-23T15:55:00.000+08:00

i was so sleepy that morning that i slept during the mass' Homily & almost all of the parts that we could take a seat. By the time we took our nap at the GS canteen, the mass was about to start, and it was really embarassing since we were late- and still in our flip flops/ slippers.

Sorry G... sleeping during that time's another point for me.
[take note that i just attended the Vigil]

after the mass, we went back to the classroom to gather our things...

still sleepy...

as i went to my bus, i stoped by the 'Santa Claus' giving goodies to guests and students as well.
Took one for Yours Truly.

almost got left buy the bus- thanks to my patient waiting for someone.

argued with my busmate about the Panday stuff toy and the parody that she's inflicting on it.

beat each other with plushies.

got home.

slept from 8: 30 am- 3 pm.

this is s**t...arrrrghhh!!!!!!!!

2005-12-22T16:41:00.000+08:00

vigil aftermath

2005-12-20T22:03:00.000+08:00

and i thought this activity was boring.

i was really unwilling to attend the vigil, dozens of excuses entering my mind.

a) sick
b) family reunion
c) xmas party
d) all of the above

not that i'm ain't that spiritual....heck, i pray to Him before every exam, in the morning and before sleeping...(plus during my "near- death" experiences...)

we began the day with that boring, singing practice....me with no voice talent whatsoever. then we had this film showing about Mr. 4th Wise Man who lost his way-literally- to Jesus due to all those "stop overs" to help the poor.
He did get there in the end.

We didn't sleep in the afternoon... we just loitered wround the campus.

Around 4 (or was that 5?) pm, we assembeled in the soccer field...

ahh... the soccer field...

so many experiences and happenings took place there...

the fair.

legacy concerts.

sanctions.

tambays.

and something worst that we'd find out later in the evening.

I was quite bored with the opening.
but i admit that when hundreds of candles are lighted in the multi, they really look good.
when we looked up that large, square patch above us, the reflection of the candles seem to look 3- dimentional.

during the course of the opening, some people could go to the center and offer all their anxieties to God. Many brave souls did.
I was not one of those.
Ileave all those anxieties to myself.

We moved to our respective conferences, and me and my friends were signed up for Call Waiting.
All about God's calling.
I won't expound on that too much, ayt honey?

After that 2- hour conference, I separated with Rai, Cams and Fat to get my candle holdeer (lest my aunt would kill me). Met Cynch, Patty and Anya, whom i adored with. Met Kit and Kim after that, whom i walked with around the open field and the oval.

Kim says that with the whole field aglow with all those Christmas lights, it could be the perfect place to propose. We agree.
Kit invites us to walk around, unmindful of how dark it is, with only the Christmas lights keeping the place glowing. Talked about alot of things,,, things i was glad i got the chance to hear.

We had a round of hot (and free) beverages at the canteen after we joined the Rosary Prayer. And this certain Senior keeps telling us to shut up, despite the low mumblings we were having.
Damn.

We met Ju, Rai & Fat... and we.. well, walked around the auditorium. It was around midnight and i hate to admit it, but i was really scared. Crap. After all those Emily Rose storied Raissa kept telling us...

And so, we didn't sleep but instead, stayed up late for stores... the mysteries of the Catholic Church, Demons and Emily Rose.

Possession.... is the result of weakness then.

>to be continued<

chuuva!!

2005-12-15T11:38:00.000+08:00

grrabe, pangatlong post ko na ito for today, gosh!chuvawuva!(ankulet!)

anwei, bukas ay handog- pasasalamat day, at matutuwa ako dahil walang lab....not that ayaw kong kasama ung mga abta a! di naman ako ganoon ka- sadista!

[Sadista: (adj) saa-dist-a; a person filled to the brim with satan-ness; syn.:some of my friends.]

ay, wrong term! di naman ako ganoon ka- mean!
at least nakakapagpasaya ako ng mga tao na alam kong medyo...kaysa sakin pag christmas..kasi ang tunay na spirit ng christmas ay pagpapasaya at pagbibigayan sa mga mas mababa satin.
Yuck!ang drama na!!
pero di nga...

Marami palang online pag gabi.
Online kaya xa?
kung i-add ko kaya siya *mistake:sila* kakausapin nila ako?
(marami sila. mga chuva.)
baka maging parang si ---- at si ------ o di kaya si ------ lang yan..
kaya siguro wag nalang muna..

pero gusto ko...

i c-click ko na ung 'Add'...

gusto ko na i-type ang Y!M i.d niya...

pero pinangungunahan ako ng takot.

wag muna.

baka wag NALANG.

hehe.

ang drama ko.

ano ba tong naiisip ko.

epekto ba ito ng napakahectic na araw?

hindi naman siguro.

ang sakit na ng shoulder ko sa kaka-type.

mga chuva...

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TIGILAN NIYO AKO!!!

ang mga songlines na TALAGA NAMAN....

2005-12-15T11:13:00.000+08:00

10.
Sundan mo
ang paghimig na lulan
ng aking pinagtatanto
sundan mo
ang paghimig ko...
-Kung wala ka (Hale)

9.
Ano ba talaga ang balak mo?
Nais mo bang ako'y tuluysng lumayo
Lumalaki na ba ang ulo mo?
-Bato (Mojofly)

8.
O kahit na
mawala ka pa
andito lang ako
naghihintay parin sayo
- Eddie Song (Mayonnaise)

7.
It's all right
I survived
I'm alive again
'coz of you
'made it through every storm
what is life
what's the use
when you're killing time?
-Because you live (Jesse McCartney)

6.
Nawawala ba ang 'yong sundo?
Ang hirap bang sakyan
sino ang seryoso?
at kahit di mo pa pilitin
at kahit di mo pa aminin
nauuwi ang lahat sa gusot
dahan-dahan, di nmana iiwanan
wag masyadong mag alala
paulit- ulit ko itong sasabihin
'di tayo titigil
- Di tayo titigil (6 cycle mind)

5.
And everytime I see you passing by
I'll just stand here
waiting for you
And i will talk to myself
on a lazy sunday afternoon
-Neon (Spongecola)

4.
Hindi mahagilap
sa lupa ang pag asa
nakikiusap sa buwan
Himala
Kasalana bang
humingi ako sa langit ng
isang himala
-Himala (Rivermaya)

3.
I close my eyes
And all i see is you
I close my eyes
I try to sleep
I can't forget you
-I'd do anything (Simple Plan)

2.
You think that you know me
You think that i'm only (tangled up in me)
When everything I do
Is only to get tangled up in YOU
-Tangled up in me (Skye Sweetnam)

1.
Andito lang ako
Naghihintay
Lagi mong tatandaan
'di ka naman nag iisa
andito lang ako makikinig sa'yo
sa buong magdamag
sakin di ka baliwala
-Sandalan (6 cycle mind)

*Nex batch nalang ung iba!xp

how bitch is being a bitch?!?!?!

2005-12-15T10:43:00.000+08:00

once upon a time, i was living QUIETLY as myself, enjoying small mercies like a 90 in my algebra, devouring gummy bears and *stalking* people...suddenly, somebody made epal and made ruin my SIMPLE LIFE....

how is it that people have the nerve to leave you on the air while you've put your whole trust on that person? I mean...halaller!!as in..someone makes iwan you on the ere...as in parang WALA KAYONG PINAGSAMAHAN...

in my part, i did my best to become a good friend, to appreciate what that person has done..but inspite of it all....hindi pala siya totoo...well....nagiging madrama na etoh..har...

well, i think that time is best left forgotten, since i barely know that person.....but i do hope that when the time comes that that person will be in need of SOMEONE LIKE ME...

I WON'T BE THERE....

let me live happily ever after.

1st post..(well..sorta...)

2005-11-29T10:13:00.000+08:00

guys..i was supposed to continue my LJ, pero i decided na dito nalang. here's my 1st post on LJ na kinopya ko nalang..hehe...

hindi ko na-feel na may fair kami..haha!!para ngang walang nangyari eh!!grabe..pero it was so tiring and enjoyable na rin...at least nag-pay off lahat ng pinaghirapan namin...lalo na sa committees...
sobra...nakakahilo mag-octopus at mag- ferris wheel/chubibo (though hindi ko na-beat ang mga previous records ko na 9 times na umulit..haha!!).

hindi rin nakapunta ang i\karamihan sa mga inimbita ko..lalo na si "love of my life"...haha!!parang kilala niya ako no?

kailan kaya yun darating?ah, basta!!iimbitahin ko siya sa legacy (kung alin man dun sa dalawa na magaganap na mas- ok ang artists..) para naman may social life ako..ang boring na kasi e...

nakakahiya nga kahapon..wala man lang akong kasama sa fair dahil on shift ung iba kong kabarkada at yung ibang friends ko ay either nawawala o hindi pumunta.kaya kailangan kong makisabit sa kung sinu-sinong mga tao...haha.
kaya kila
>MJ Ambrosio (d0n't worry, walang k-on c CK!)
>Justine Sanchez (oo, si mHareEnaH paRin!)
>Nikki Edelmaier (hehe..1% nalang ba?)
>Anya Ong (uuy...masaya sa octopus!!)
>Rae Zervoulakos (sorry,hindi ko parin matama ang surname mo!)
>Alex C. (yep, parehas lang pala tayo, pare!)
>mga kakalase ko sa 2-4 na hindi nag- atubiling samahan ako sa pag-lalakwatsa (pUMp It uP!!!astIg taYo!!)
>Special tnx kila d.R M (nini) at Bianca Reyes na tinulungan akong maghanap ng tsinelas ng naputol yung strap ng gamit ko.
MARAMING, MARAMING SALAMAT SA PAGSAMA SA AKIN!!!
next year uli!!hope u guyz w0n't change..
(etong shout out)
mahal ko kayo!! xp

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